Is it OK to unalive yourself on company time? Asking for a friend

lockedinsideanotherdream-blog:

me: wow i really liked that song now i think i’ll listen to it another seventy times in a row

(via ladynokturna)

Anyone else go home bawling your eyes out

Dissociate for 1 hr smoke 10 cigarettes and drink a litre of vodka

Or is your mental health stable and your job not physically, mentally and emotional damaging?

I don’t even know how to deal with things anymore.

I just want to be numb.

Luna ✖

🌒🌓🌔🌕🌗🌘

I was rarely drinking, could go weeks without a drink, didn’t care for it, I don’t endulge or drink to get drunk, but honestly, I need to come home to a single glass of wine these days just to bring myself down to a level that feels normal.

My mental health is on a decline, I was doing so well, but lately, I cry in my car every day, I always feel like I’m making mistakes, I feel like nobody is in my corner, you make mistakes and it’s noticed, people are congratulated on Minor things but you can bust your arse, and not get any thanks or praise, I feel excluded, I feel alone, I feel like no matter what I do, I’m not important, appreciated or treated with respect. I’m honestly in a place I didn’t think I would be back in. I know not to vent to social media, but I think, talking about it, is a step in the right direction. This is a generalisation of my life not specified to any aspect of my life. But I am trying. I can get through this.

This year has fucked me up so bad mentally

Im scared to leave home

Im scared to go out

I’ve become a recluse again

I have some many people here for my fiances birthday and I just want to be alone

Im not ok

Im not well

Im actually at such a low point

But its all in my head

Imagine being in lockdown because of covid and not seeing your friends for months.

Now imagine being in a group chat with all of them where they plan to have a drink up the weekend the restrictions ease.

Now imagine this planning has gone on for a week and not once have you been invited even though you’ve read every message.

Now imagine the drink up theme is halloween / spooky and its the one thing you’re known to love, live and breathe.

Now imagine its a Friday night and you’ve been working so hard everyday for the last 6 months, back and forth from home and work, day after day, been having a really rough time, feel so separated from your social group, been struggling with life’s ups and downs, then feel so forgotten.

Imagine that, I mean, that would suck.

2 hours of sleep and a 9 hour shift

Coffee is liquid gold ☕🖤

Goth Juice 🖤

And Orange Juice 🧃🍊

This hand bag is too cute 🖤

Hawaiian tshirts but make it spooky 🖤🕸👻🦇

Coffee is my blood type

☕🖤

Did I just spend $25 on 2 pairs of socks?

Duh! Of course I did 🎃🖤🦇👻🕸🐈🧡

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Made some scrunchies!

Best part of today tbh 🖤