We were together almost a year and we had sworn to one another that we would make it a lifetime together, when we actually should have never even have been together. He robbed me not only of my future, my money, my love, but of myself. I met him after I had been sexually assaulted in college and shortly after losing my grandmother. I was in a very vulnerable place, I think he recognized this in me. So he promised me love and protection and of course I wanted it because I needed it. I lost more than 9,000 dollars being with him, got an STD, was verbally and physically being abused, I was unable to speak to my family and friends, was cheated on, accused of having sex with his friends and family. I could not leave the house with him checking my location, facetiming me so I could show him where I was and with who, there we times he smelled me down there.
I was not his first victim, I know of another young women he did this to but I was the one he took it the farthest with. I almost had a baby but I lost it. This relationship pushed me to the edge where I would not sleep, eat, would have panic attacks, and thoughts of harming myself which I actually tried to do. I actually did love this person, I had lost so much that he became everything to me but he was showing me who he really was and if did not have him i did not have anything. I knew I finally had to leave him. We were both home that day, I told him I was going to the gym but I actually went and sat in the parking lot for 2 hours and called all my friends and family. I was crying out for help, for courage, and because I was about to leave someone I stilled loved despite what he had done.
I turned on the car drove back and got into his car before he drove off, I started crying and then I told him i could no longer do this, that i had to finally pick myself and not him. I got out went inside and packed up my things. I was living 2 hours away from home, I knew nobody, all i had was my car, job, and school. I was fortunate enough to find people to help me get through it. Two weeks after he called me and cussed me out, told me to pull up so we could fight, then had me robbed. After all this I had a miscarriage, yeah I lost a lot. It’s been 7 months, I am a medical assistant working on going back to school to be an RN, I am still healing but I am in a better place. I got myself out of something I thought would never end, I still don’t know who I am but I now have a chance to decide who I want to be. I am going to therapy, it’s not easy but I am doing it.
Submitted by JS
Comments From Self_Esteem_Rehab
Thanks so much for sharing your story with us JS.
I am so sorry that you had to endure so much trauma. I can only imagine how hurt you are right now. I know it hurts and it will take a while for you to heal but I sincerely believe that you can and will. I am glad you have plans for the future. That’s so encouraging to hear. Your tone is firm and I can only hope you keep healing. I believe there is life after abuse and I know you will thrive.
Thanks again for writing to us.
Sending love your way.
SER.
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