Сейчас, вместо первого, а возможно, и второго урока, нас с подругой отчим повезет в поликлинику. Нам в школе раздали бумажки для сдачи анализов и нужно самим отнести туда, а эта поликлиника находится довольно далеко😒 Представляю, как мы бы с подругой в этот холод сами добирались бы😅😂 ————————————
▪️ Даниссимо «Дольче Милано» + 6гр ржаных отрубей
▪️ 10гр овсяный отрубей
Впервые за долгое время ем отруби не с водой с сах.замом😂 Не могу сказать точно, как вкуснее
I am now well again after spending 5 days in hospital! Well from the vomiting, that is. My head is no longer pounding and I can enjoy food!
There is nothing in this world that you can’t achieve or can’t be.
Remind yourself of who you are.
Remind yourself of where you come from.
You are a part of the universe!
And therefore you have its Power.
The Power to do or be whoever you decide to.
I love you so much!
♥️ ♥️ ♥️ ♥️
#poweroftheuniverse #universe #love #sophiaefremidis #freedom
Lunch was an avocado, bio cheese, tomato and a quinoa patty toastie!! 😛
Challenge yourself to approach negative thoughts in a more positive way! 🌱🌺
Art by @alyserurianidesign ✨
Tag your friends in the comments below to remind them of how special they are! Share on social media to help spread awareness and positivity 💖
Когда твоя жизнь на 90% состоит из работы невозможно жить без тотального контроля.
А потом ты просто не можешь от этого избавится. Тебе нужно контролировать все, на все выделять время. Следить за тем чтобы ни минуты не было потрачено зря.
Час в день на рисунок, восемь на работу, встать в семь, лечь в три, пол часа на игры, два на гитару.
Каждый день расписание по минутам.
На пьянку вечер пятницы. Лечь не позже трех, встать в восемь.
Питание разноси в таблицу, отмечай количество воды. Пол часа на заполнение ежедневника, напоминалок и будильников перед сном.
На самом деле это очень удобно, позволяет взять себя в руки, когда на тебя накапливается слишком много.
Время структурируется, раскладывается по полочкам, задачи выстраиваются в идеальную прямую и ты спокойно их решаешь.
И кажется я на грани открытия идеального баланса между таймменеджментом и распиздяйством. А это уже почти волшебство.
Every like, comment, and report... I add another cut every time..
Wishing I was back at home and in the humidity......(T—T)
.(tw negative vent)
...I've lately been having such a hard time with motivation to do anything and just struggling to even stay present. Honestly right now I wish I could just quit everything and sleep forever but unfortunately I can't do that....I wish I had the drive to do things that most people do...I'm such a failure...
#recovery #sad #depressed #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #edrecovery #ed #anorexia #snack #hummus #pitachips #lonely #vent
The handsomest love muffin 😍💕 I asked him to smile and he refused so this was the best I got 😂 but I got to spend the day with the handsomest and sweetest love so I'm not too upset 💕
tw//first day of fasting complete fuck yeah 🤠🤠i’m aiming for another two days. my family’s sus & i’m stressed bc i’ve tried to get them to hop tf off my ass by eating w them, but it’ll result in a binge and they’ll STILL say i’m not eating enough. so tbh i’m done pleasing them, i’m fasting until my body gives out and they can deal with it. i’m tired of being stuffed fat.
Knowing that this may be the thinnest I ever be makes my heart break. It's taken so long to get here and now it's just being taken from me. I'm in forced recovery right now and I feel so much fatter than all of the other girls here. I feel like I will never be worthy and it is heartbreaking to be put under all of these rules after such a long period of restriction. #anorexia #ana #fuckmylife #eatingdisorder #iwantfood #inpatient #hospital
This man is my ultimate goal. And if I somehow was able to be thinner than him, I might die from happiness.
the other day we did an activity in group where we passed sheets of paper around and people wrote what they admired about us. upon receiving my paper back and seeing the comments written there in blue and black, my immediate thought was “i can’t believe i’ve tricked these people into thinking i have a good personality.”
i don’t know exactly which part of me pushed this thought forward— maybe anxiety, or depression, or simply my impostor syndrome. but when i read things like “i admire your sense of humor” or “you’re an authentic person”, my immediate impulse is to say no, no, that’s not me, you have the wrong idea.
every day i worry about whether people will see the “real” me. i struggle immensely with social anxiety and self doubt that cripple my attempts to connect with people. i work hard most of the time to push past those things, but at the end of the day, i am not sure if it has worked, and i am convinced that people see me the way i see myself: closed up, anxious, unsure. but that paper told me otherwise, and that’s MAD hard to accept. but ultimately it tells me that my hard work is paying off, and that it’s worth it to keep going. it tells me that people really do see me, and more than that, they like what they see. and u know what.. that’s enough to make a betch cry.
osfed #osfedrecovery #mentalhealth #mentalhealthrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #atypicalanorexia #positivity #optimism #encouragement #motivation #motivationalquotes #depression #depressionrecovery #selfcompassion #selfcare #ed #edrecovery #edwarrior #prorecovery #haes #recovery #edfighter
hey guys🙆🏻♀️ i’ve got rough news. got hit with a confusing truth this morning that i’ve been losing all week. it drove me to break down, honestly, with the body dysmorphia, mood improvement, resolved home troubles and clean from habits, i assumed i was doing great weight wise 😅 apperently i’m almost back to the weight i was when i came out of hospital prematurely... here’s today’s food🤷🏻♀️ big pot of oatmeal with a peach and latte ontop, two eggs with cheese bacon on an english muffin, a burrito bowl with rice beef and THE BIGGEST DAMN TOMATO IVE SEEN (weighed it, close to a lbs) ✋🏼 don’t be fooled by the arial view of this bowl, there’s two cups of rice and two cups of beef in it 😭 ever ate straight up beef with a spoon not the best... snack was a bunch of rice crackers and soup, dinner was rabbit paprikash 😍😍 childhood favourite i’ve come to terms with❤️ slow roasted rabbit or chicken in a lard and sourcream gravy 😅😋 fatty but good! then snack was savoury chicken noodle oats and half my sisters mc dons milkshake! surprise extra but when you want to get better you don’t just say no to free cookies and milkshake. super challenging but i got to spend some down time with her so it was worth it❤️ also managed to RELAX today, which is rare. i’m always on my feet and staying busy, distracted, but up until lunch i stayed in bed 💪🏼 that’s actually a huge win for me to let myself do that.
#anorexia #anorexic #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #prorecovery #recovery #chinesefood #burritobowl #fdoe #eatittobeatit #edwarrior #edsoldier #anawarrior #anasoldier #edfamily #edfighter #anafighter #fuckana #healthy #health #fitness
It has been a hard two weeks almost slipping into a relapse but slowly finding way back with these two recovery wins today.
Yesterday’s dinner was a 3 course meal with sushi, salad and chicken skewers.
Second pic is night snack which is 4 scoops of ice cream. The last pic is just to show you how cheap a meal can get. I order the top item on the menu and converted to AUD, it’s actually around $4!! And I ate it all even tho it was one of the most oily dishes ever.
I’ve had a pretty decent time since I arrived and recovered from jet lag. Although I’m not fully enjoying it like I normally do. It feels like I’m watching through a window and not experiencing anything. I wouldn’t say I feel good, but I’m ok.
Anyways, I’m off to Thailand today and I might spam on my story if there’s wifi. •
#edrecovery #anorexia #depression #anxiety #selfharm #eatingdisorder #anorexianervosa #recovery #stuggles #food #challenges #fearfoods #recoverywin
i follow this girl on my main account and she is GOALS. every time she posts pics like this one i get so triggered though and i want to block her but i can never do it. she’s so perfect. her tattoos are so amazing. her body is to die for. i feel sad and disgusting. earlier i was looking in the mirror to make sure i got all of the lint off my dress and i couldn’t stand what i saw. nothing but gross fat. i hate myself. #thinspiraton #thin #skinny #ed #eatingdissorder #ana #anorexia #anorexic #triggerwarning #blockdontreport
I know it’s messed up, but I really want the stares, I want the comments on my weight loss, I want clothes to be baggy, I want to be dizzy and faint from not eating. I want to be hungry all the time and be exhausted when I exercise. Hell, I almost want to be hospitalized so people know it’s not a phase or a prank or that I’m okay. I know I’m messed up, and I kinda like it too.
when words are best at describing what’s in your heart ❤️