“It took me all day to find some inspiration,
It just hit me like a ton of bricks, no renovation.
Problem with the game now, there ain't no innovation,
I see my shit all in your shit, we call that imitation,
And they say that's flattering, but I ain't flattered at all.
Matter fact y'all need to practice that more,
See my man Nate asked me if I gained weight
I said nah, my pockets got fatter, that's all.”
——————————————————————————— It’s crazy how the lens at which you see the world around you can shift so rapidly between grim realities and hopeful intentions. In this day and age we live in I’ve found confidence is often misconstrued as vanity, and vanity is often seen as success; but more often than not reality is a bit more nuisanced than the silly mental games people put themselves through while seeking out validation. If you start realizing the power you hold within your intent you can harness any pain into something and use it. Somehow I had forgotten that for a month it seems. Then I looked back on this year realizing instead of spending my time partying or hanging out, I held down a mortgage and job all while actually building up a savings account instead. I raised a beautiful healthy pup and cat to another year older. I teach people how to grow things all day and get payed for it. I even brought all these lovely plants into existence and I just keep getting better at doing it. I’m pretty dope. It makes a lot of days better knowing that I can do just that. There is so much more I will achieved because I want to keep branching out and making more things grow and flourish. I don’t much care for the negative thoughts of those who cannot see my vision for what it is. My negative thoughts about myself far outweigh any of the petty stones others throw at me. Nothing can stop this wheel I’ve set into motion, not even myself. You reap what you sow, so I might as well start planting again. Invest in yourself.
Here’s the last few plants I ended up pulling down from that garden last summer. It’s all about that hang time, stay up in 2019 yo. This is just the beginning.
Hope you’ve all enjoyed the warm up.
Just living is not enough... one must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower.
Hans Christian Andersen
I've been in lovely company with this orchid for almost 10 years. .
she had flowers when I first got her but they died off quickly.
for years I struggled to find the right balance. the recommended icecube once a week isn't enough, is it girl, you look thirsty. why y'all lying to me! do you like this window how about over here here better I blamed myself.
earlier this year I repotted her. with time, her roots spread vigorously, her leaves thickened +, about a month ago, sent off a spike + began blooming about a week ago. .
give yourself that kind of tender care in the new year. you have all the time you need. your potential is infinite. repot, build a firm foundation filled with rituals that feed you, do things you love, quit that job, get to the gym, meditate, break up with that dude who's sucking your soul + live the life you've always imagined. you got this.