Hi all!! I’ve been a bit M.I.A. lately in order to focus on my studying for final exams! (almost done!) ✨
In spite of how busy life has been, I’ve been working on a very special, and personal blog post for some time now—and it’s based on the year 2019! I’m in the midst of writing a 3-part post to share what I went through each month of this year + what I’ve learned as an outcome of both my trials and my successes. (ps. I’m SUPER excited to share this with you all!) Check out what I learned during the month of February ↓ (plus click the link in my bio to read January-April!!) 🌸
February was a month of many tears for me. I remember coming home from school, immediately drowning myself among the 50 blankets on my bed and then crying. I don’t even know or remember why. One thing I do remember is that I felt like I had absolutely no control over my emotions. I relied way too much on others, expecting them to be the ones to make me happy. I didn’t know how to be happy or make myself happy, and I was selfish for placing such a big task on other people.
What I have learned now is that happiness does not start with, nor should depend on, a relationship, a friendship, or any other human being. Happiness ultimately starts with taking responsibility and realizing that you cannot put the weight of your emotions on another person.
Most importantly, I’ve learned that God provides experiences and beauty for us to be happy about because He IS happiness!! Think about it. God lets us admire sunsets, listen to beautiful music, and create artwork---these are all just little tastes of God's beauty. So, how do we find true happiness We seek God because the closer we draw to Him, the closer we feel beauty and happiness.