I knew from the start
I don't belong in these parts
There's too much hate
There's too much hurt for this heart
Lord knows this planet feels like a hopeless place
Thank God I'm going back home to outer space [Spaceship-Kesha]
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My love for Ouma Mana is definitely tricky to explain. She means a lot to me in more ways than one, and I’m not sure my words will be enough to hold her justice.
She of course is infected by the virus, but I take that whole scenario as a metaphor. The true Mana is kind and caring: she takes care of Gai, loves Shu more than anyone in the world. But rejection is painful. And when it happens over and over and over, after one gives everything he or she has, it is only a matter of time before it changes their personality completely. Rejection makes people want everyone who hurts them to suffer as much as they are.
I see myself in her so often. She shares my pain. My heart was broken and trashed over and over again. I try not to think about it, but I’m getting more and more bitter every time. In a situation like mine, no matter how hard I try, how much I love or care... there is always someone better. Someone who is liked and loved better. And no matter what I do for anyone, I know I will mean nothing to them as soon as they stop needing me. And every time I am left with a dull heartache I carry for months and months and it never really heals.
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