Pal bhar theher jaao, dil ye sambhal jaaye-
My mother doesn't teach me about love. Her hands are getting rusty, feet too slow. She knows melancholy by name. Meanwhile, I'm the child of a sad blossom. And in these merry-go-round moments, with no words, no truths aloof, I'm teaching myself.
Kaise tumhe roka karoon. Meri taraf aata, har gham phisal jaaye,
aankhon mein tumko bharoon-
Your fingernails carve every sorrow on the lines inside my palms. I struggle with the pain, the narrow upbringing of your heart. But your fingernails don't fight my eyes, raging and dying, filling every part of you in them- I'm whole.
Bin bole baatein tumse karoon, agar tum saath ho, agar tum saath ho-
Trace your promises on my tongue- feel the restlessness in my veins- take a wild belief in this arrogant world. Ved, the dusk melts into the night, and your habits melt into mine, and I swear at this moment, I'm wearing your world on my feet.
I'm dragging you slowly.
Agar tum saath ho, Agar tum saath ho-
Ved, your absence will cause terror in me. When you start losing me in your eyes, come back maybe Ved, your absence is more than what my fragile breath can handle.
Teri nazron mein hai tere sapne, tere sapnon mein hai naraazi,
Mujhe lagta hai ki baatein dil ki, hoti lafzon ki dhokhebaazi-
I recite your name like a prayer, you and I, we exist on the edge of what I believe God to love us like. I watch you breathe, I call you to be mine, and I live in these in-betweens of you calling me by your name and forgetting.
Tum saath ho ya na ho, kya fark hai. Bedard thi zindagi bedard hai-
Ved, pray tell me then, why my love makes the sea, and you never drown in it Why won't you believe the sea never runs out
Come find me. Find me, and never let go. Love is too weak a word to give you.
Come find me in you. Maybe we can find love in the same place we lost.
✍️ - @tokillapoem