Before Instagram, before being a trainer, before I developed PTSD I had regular dinner parties. Food is a language of love in my opinion, and feeding people in my home was a regular display of my love and care. After I had PTSD it was hard to speak in food. I was still full of love and care but the parts of me that allowed me to reflect that to others were buried under a mountain of fear and exhaustion. .
While I have had people to dinner in the last few years, last night was the first time since 2014 that I was able to pour my love and care into an evening of nourishment and share my home with new(ish) people. My worries were blissfully boring - what if dinner turns out bland - and not catastrophic.
I asked for and accepted help. My family supported me by helping to straighten up our apartment, cook, and wash up. I was relaxed in a way at dinner in a manner I don't believe I ever have been before. The night was a conversation in friendship and food. It was a reflection of how far I have come, not just since 2014 but over the course of my entire lifetime. .
Pictured: nectarine, goat cheese, and arugula salad. Also served Summer Squash Caponata, and pasta with marinated tomatoes and herbs. Recipes from @nytcooking
#traumahealing #ptsd #dinnerparty
Our magical mountaintop vineyard is nearing harvest ✨🌱🍇🦄 We farm organically all year long waiting for this big day and I’m honestly just so excited to see the beauty (and deliciousness!) of this years vintage ⚡️🍷
tatliya biraz ara verme karari aldigim dogru😂🥴 bugun canimiz baya balik cektigi icin moda’da bulunan @dardeniafish e oturduk acikcasi sunumlar , lezzet ve servis acisindan cok memnun kaldik. levrek tabagi ve salatanin porsiyonu tam doyurmalik! ilk fotografta bulunan aci soslu karides ise farkli ve lezzetliydi kesinlikle denemelisiniz bizim favorimiz o😍 gidilecek yerler listesine eklenmeli #foodlyy #fish
Last night 25 of our nearest and dearest joined us for a candlelit dinner to celebrate @sodell703 birthday. Darling, you are so loved, thank you for being the energetic force that brings so many wonderful people into our lives. And thank you to our friends who fill our everyday with warmth and kindness. My heart is full this morning.