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Shaman: one who heals themselves, and through their direct experience, leads others to heal themselves. .
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My brother, my 🦋, my #findingpurplesummer, right before Shamanism 101... where I cried the entire class. In class we learned about feeling called to be a shaman, and being struck by lightning being one of the ancient ways to know someone will be a healer, shaman. This resonated with me.
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In the past year as my community watched me suffer, metaphorically struck by lightning, I received many messages: "I'm angry FOR you"... Disbelief, shock, horror, confusion. With each jab, everyone around me seemed to think I was more protected. That the probability of the universe handing me more suffering EQUALLED impossibility. .
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But I learned in a very tangible way that probability and possibility are not the same, no matter how badly we want them to be. And I learned about strength, surrender, discipline, self-care, receiving, giving, and healing. And I learned what a Shaman is, and that I feel called to be one...In fact, it feels like destiny.
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And now I am here, at @schoolyogainstitute learning Mystical Yoga practices of the East and Peruvian Shamanism, and I am continuing to heal myself knowing that when one of us heals, we all heal. .
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 #meghealsgrief 
 #meghealswith
 #yoga
 #yogateachertraining 
 #yogaeverydamnday
 #syitribe
 #ytt200
 #shamanism
 #shamanicjourneying
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 #medicinewoman #healing #healer #healerlife #shaman #energyhealer  #energymedicine #jetsetter #goals #dreamjob #healingvibes #meditation #namaste #holistichealing #holisticmedicine #holisticlifestyle #healingjourney #wanderlust #sacredvalleyperu

2018-12-08 19:28   48 1

 

Shaman: one who heals themselves, and through their direct experience, leads others to heal themselves. . . My brother, my 🦋, my #findingpurplesummer, right before Shamanism 101... where I cried the entire class. In class we learned about feeling called to be a shaman, and being struck by lightning being one of the ancient ways to know someone will be a healer, shaman. This resonated with me. . . In the past year as my community watched me suffer, metaphorically struck by lightning, I received many messages: "I'm angry FOR you"... Disbelief, shock, horror, confusion. With each jab, everyone around me seemed to think I was more protected. That the probability of the universe handing me more suffering EQUALLED impossibility. . . But I learned in a very tangible way that probability and possibility are not the same, no matter how badly we want them to be. And I learned about strength, surrender, discipline, self-care, receiving, giving, and healing. And I learned what a Shaman is, and that I feel called to be one...In fact, it feels like destiny. . . And now I am here, at @schoolyogainstitute learning Mystical Yoga practices of the East and Peruvian Shamanism, and I am continuing to heal myself knowing that when one of us heals, we all heal. . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #yoga #yogateachertraining #yogaeverydamnday #syitribe #ytt200 #shamanism #shamanicjourneying . . #medicinewoman #healing #healer #healerlife #shaman #energyhealer  #energymedicine #jetsetter #goals #dreamjob #healingvibes #meditation #namaste #holistichealing #holisticmedicine #holisticlifestyle #healingjourney #wanderlust #sacredvalleyperu

"The Symbol"
 #randyspart5 an #adventurestory
CONTINUED from #randyspart4 .
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I urged Randy, @mesafarmmarket to please tell us, that it was very important, even just a little bit of an explanation. He said when he was a young man he was having all these problems, addiction, alcoholism, suicidal ideation...he didn’t fit in our society, couldn’t find his way in the world, and had so much anger for the way the world was. He met a guru on a Native American reserve. He was drawn to this symbol! He asked what it was and was told it couldn’t fully be explained to an outsider, but it stood for Corn. .
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Corn needs a balance of feminine and masculine. The phallic nature of the husk, with the dip of the earth. That’s how all things need to be grown. It was a symbol for how to grow in community. A symbol for rebalancing the energies in the world, and between humans and the land. .
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Once there was unaware mysticism, now there’s aware blatant misuse/destruction of our land. We need aware mysticism, to rebalance the yin & yang. We spoke of Stewardship vs. Dominion. That perhaps the Bible did not say “Dominion” over the land, but “Stewardship”. We are meant to be the caretakers of the land, in "Charge of" but not the “Rulers of" which has translated through time in our society as destroyers of...
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One final post to follow before I start Mystical Yoga Teacher Training with #syitribe today!!! .
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 #meghealsgrief
 #meghealswith
 #findingpurplesummer
 #griefjourney 
 #griefandpraise
 #storytelling .
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 #naturewisdom #hearthealing #soulsearchingjourney #spiritguide #griefguide #keepitwild #shamanicjourneying #shaman #storyteller #cherokeeheritage #nativeamericanroots  #senseofadventure #marykateandashleyforever #cousinmischief #camperlife #hippiegypsy #ontheroadagain #crosscountryroadtrip #tripping #capitolreefnationalpark

2018-12-01 12:34   60 1

 

"The Symbol" #randyspart5 an #adventurestory CONTINUED from #randyspart4 . . I urged Randy, @mesafarmmarket to please tell us, that it was very important, even just a little bit of an explanation. He said when he was a young man he was having all these problems, addiction, alcoholism, suicidal ideation...he didn’t fit in our society, couldn’t find his way in the world, and had so much anger for the way the world was. He met a guru on a Native American reserve. He was drawn to this symbol! He asked what it was and was told it couldn’t fully be explained to an outsider, but it stood for Corn. . . Corn needs a balance of feminine and masculine. The phallic nature of the husk, with the dip of the earth. That’s how all things need to be grown. It was a symbol for how to grow in community. A symbol for rebalancing the energies in the world, and between humans and the land. . . Once there was unaware mysticism, now there’s aware blatant misuse/destruction of our land. We need aware mysticism, to rebalance the yin & yang. We spoke of Stewardship vs. Dominion. That perhaps the Bible did not say “Dominion” over the land, but “Stewardship”. We are meant to be the caretakers of the land, in "Charge of" but not the “Rulers of" which has translated through time in our society as destroyers of... . . One final post to follow before I start Mystical Yoga Teacher Training with #syitribe today!!! . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #findingpurplesummer #griefjourney #griefandpraise #storytelling . . #naturewisdom #hearthealing #soulsearchingjourney #spiritguide #griefguide #keepitwild #shamanicjourneying #shaman #storyteller #cherokeeheritage #nativeamericanroots #senseofadventure #marykateandashleyforever #cousinmischief #camperlife #hippiegypsy #ontheroadagain #crosscountryroadtrip #tripping #capitolreefnationalpark

"Signs and Symbols Collide"  #randyspart4 an #adventurestory
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Once we got back we started really going all in on buying from this market! The best tasting tomatillos I’ve ever had, tomatoes, fresh PURPLE basil pesto, the cheese, you name it!...and cucumbers. Randy said he had better ones out back so he left out a back door to get them. While he was gone @workcamperninja said “I wonder what this symbol means.” .
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Neither @b.happycamper nor I had really even noticed it. -
“What symbol?” -
“The symbol everywhere. It’s here on the door, over there, on the sign out front.”
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“You should ask him.” -
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Randy came back and we forgot all about the symbol. We asked about the Native American Pinon Salve and he told us we could test it. Brooke said “You can put it on your tattoo”. .
I said “No. I can’t”
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Randy stopped, very confused, and asked “Why?”
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“Because it has coconut oil in it. You wouldn’t put coconut oil on a tattoo.”
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I put out my arm for him to see, and his eyes IMMEDIATELY looked to my other arm, which was hanging by my side, to look for it’s twin. His eyes narrowed. He made a connection. His eyes met mine. “Wow. Very contrasting” -
“Yes.” -
“Yin and yang?” -
“You could say that.” -
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We paid and turned to leave, when the symbol on the door caught my eye.
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“Wait! We wanted to ask the significance of that symbol. What’s it mean? Or stand for, or…” .
For the second time our eyes met deeply, an encounter with fate. .
“It’s very complicated. Or difficult to explain.” -
“That’s okay! We have time!” -
“But do I?” -
TO BE CONTINUED
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📸:@b.happycamper
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 #meghealsgrief
 #meghealswith
 #findingpurplesummer
 #griefjourney 
 #griefandpraise
 #storytelling .
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 #naturewisdom #hearthealing #healingenergy #holisticlifestyle #soulsearchingjourney #spiritguide #keepitwild #shamanicjourneying #shaman #storyteller #cherokeeheritage #nativeamericanroots #storytellerphotography #senseofadventure #marykateandashleyforever #cousinmischief #camperlife #hippiegypsy #ontheroadagain #crosscountryroadtrip #tripping

2018-11-20 01:46   46 8

 

"Signs and Symbols Collide" #randyspart4 an #adventurestory CONTINUED from #randyspart3 . . Once we got back we started really going all in on buying from this market! The best tasting tomatillos I’ve ever had, tomatoes, fresh PURPLE basil pesto, the cheese, you name it!...and cucumbers. Randy said he had better ones out back so he left out a back door to get them. While he was gone @workcamperninja said “I wonder what this symbol means.” . . . Neither @b.happycamper nor I had really even noticed it. - “What symbol” - “The symbol everywhere. It’s here on the door, over there, on the sign out front.” . “You should ask him.” - . Randy came back and we forgot all about the symbol. We asked about the Native American Pinon Salve and he told us we could test it. Brooke said “You can put it on your tattoo”. . I said “No. I can’t” . Randy stopped, very confused, and asked “Why” . “Because it has coconut oil in it. You wouldn’t put coconut oil on a tattoo.” . . . I put out my arm for him to see, and his eyes IMMEDIATELY looked to my other arm, which was hanging by my side, to look for it’s twin. His eyes narrowed. He made a connection. His eyes met mine. “Wow. Very contrasting” - “Yes.” - “Yin and yang” - “You could say that.” - . We paid and turned to leave, when the symbol on the door caught my eye. . “Wait! We wanted to ask the significance of that symbol. What’s it mean Or stand for, or…” . For the second time our eyes met deeply, an encounter with fate. . “It’s very complicated. Or difficult to explain.” - “That’s okay! We have time!” - “But do I” - TO BE CONTINUED . . 📸:@b.happycamper . . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #findingpurplesummer #griefjourney #griefandpraise #storytelling . . . #naturewisdom #hearthealing #healingenergy #holisticlifestyle #soulsearchingjourney #spiritguide #keepitwild #shamanicjourneying #shaman #storyteller #cherokeeheritage #nativeamericanroots #storytellerphotography #senseofadventure #marykateandashleyforever #cousinmischief #camperlife #hippiegypsy #ontheroadagain #crosscountryroadtrip #tripping

After the third loss I suffered in 7 months, I WAS DONE!!! GOT T' GO!!! I retreated to California, my happy place, with my oldest friend from first grade, @ibrittanyb. As an only child she grew up with me and my brother, somewhat as siblings! .
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On a healing hike to a waterfall (it was green but mostly dry) <<<SWIPE 👈>>> in Malibu [on my heart right now], the most serendipitous thing occured...bearded dragons, my brother's childhood pet for YEARS. <<<SWIPE 👈>>>This little guy crossed our path and let us hang with him for a while. She said "Meg! It's Q!" I believe in synchronicity, and I believe in signs. And this one came with so much magic, serenity, and solace. .
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I thanked him for sending me a sign. I thanked him for being my spirit guide now. I thanked him for sending us this. And I felt overwhelmed with peace and happiness. He sent me and B a childhood reminder that newer friends wouldn't get. It was specific to us. And guess what? Not on any other hike, with any other person, before or since, or EVER, on ANY of my many travels, have I seen a bearded dragon in the wild. .
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Do you believe in signs?!
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 #findingpurplesummer
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 #meghealsgrief
 #meghealswith
 #griefandpraise
 #synchronicity
 #signsandsymbols
 #clairaudience 
 #hiking
 #nature .
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 #griefjourney #griefandloss #griefshare #takeadeepbreath #meditation #keepitwild #wanderlust #selflove #selfcare #soulsearchingjourney #healingjourney #travelbreak #mystic #spiritualist #lightworker #hearthealing #shamanheart #highervibes #theflowstate #beherenow

2018-11-15 22:41   146 18

 

After the third loss I suffered in 7 months, I WAS DONE!!! GOT T' GO!!! I retreated to California, my happy place, with my oldest friend from first grade, @ibrittanyb. As an only child she grew up with me and my brother, somewhat as siblings! . . On a healing hike to a waterfall (it was green but mostly dry) <<<SWIPE 👈>>> in Malibu [on my heart right now], the most serendipitous thing occured...bearded dragons, my brother's childhood pet for YEARS. <<<SWIPE 👈>>>This little guy crossed our path and let us hang with him for a while. She said "Meg! It's Q!" I believe in synchronicity, and I believe in signs. And this one came with so much magic, serenity, and solace. . . I thanked him for sending me a sign. I thanked him for being my spirit guide now. I thanked him for sending us this. And I felt overwhelmed with peace and happiness. He sent me and B a childhood reminder that newer friends wouldn't get. It was specific to us. And guess what Not on any other hike, with any other person, before or since, or EVER, on ANY of my many travels, have I seen a bearded dragon in the wild. . . Do you believe in signs! . . #findingpurplesummer . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #griefandpraise #synchronicity #signsandsymbols #clairaudience #hiking #nature . . #griefjourney #griefandloss #griefshare #takeadeepbreath #meditation #keepitwild #wanderlust #selflove #selfcare #soulsearchingjourney #healingjourney #travelbreak #mystic #spiritualist #lightworker #hearthealing #shamanheart #highervibes #theflowstate #beherenow

That time my brother sent a butterfly to me at "Land's End", Edith Wharton's Summer home on the sea. Along the Cliff Walk there were multicolored berries, including purple, and a solitary purple flower later in the day. He's always lookin' out. .
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I see you, I hear you, I feel you Q. .
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 #meghealsgrief
 #meghealswith
 #griefandpraise 
 #clairaudience 
 #signsfromabove
 #grattitude 
 #findingpurplesummer .
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 #soulsearchingjourney #griefjourney #griefandloss #healinggrief  #wanderlust #healingjourney #healerlife #siblinglove #acrossthedivide #highervibes #theflowstate #beherenow #clairaudient #hearthealing #emotionalhealing #justbreathe #divinelove #signsandsymbols #signsfromspirit #soulmates #weareone #energy

2018-11-09 15:19   55 4

 

That time my brother sent a butterfly to me at "Land's End", Edith Wharton's Summer home on the sea. Along the Cliff Walk there were multicolored berries, including purple, and a solitary purple flower later in the day. He's always lookin' out. . . I see you, I hear you, I feel you Q. . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #griefandpraise #clairaudience #signsfromabove #grattitude #findingpurplesummer . . #soulsearchingjourney #griefjourney #griefandloss #healinggrief  #wanderlust #healingjourney #healerlife #siblinglove #acrossthedivide #highervibes #theflowstate #beherenow #clairaudient #hearthealing #emotionalhealing #justbreathe #divinelove #signsandsymbols #signsfromspirit #soulmates #weareone #energy

In the dresses we wore to funerals of loved ones, we found our purple summer.
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We tied our magic into our dresses. Having put so much pain and love into them, we now charged them with peace, with understanding, with intention, with lavender. .
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We grew up together. All of us. Her mother, my father, my brother (her cousin), her Gram, my MawMaw...even Logan (my childhood friend, highschool sweetheart, and forever love). With our strength united we made our own ritual of laying our ghosts to rest, of healing our hearts. And together we choose to stay in this life, to move through the pain, and to live and love to the fullest. We are endless sources of inspiration for one another, now more than ever. Connected. A vision of inifinity. Cousins. Sisters. Friends. .
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"How do you do it? How are you so strong?" - "With the same blood that runs in your veins" .
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We always wanted adventure. I think we're finally realizing life is the biggest one of them all. .
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📸: @b.happycamper .
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 #meghealsgrief
 #meghealswith 
 #findingpurplesummer 
 #griefandpraise
 #senseofadventure
 #griefjourney .
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 #adventurestory #marykateandashleyforever #cousinmischief #camperlife #hippiegypsy #ontheroadagain #crosscountryroadtrip #keepitwild #cherokeeheritage #nativeamericanroots #shaman #storyteller #storytellerphotography #griefjourney #griefandloss #griefpoetry #griefshare #sayinggoodbye #healing #healer #healerlife #alternativellifestyle #magic #witches

2018-11-08 19:01   75 6

 

In the dresses we wore to funerals of loved ones, we found our purple summer. . . We tied our magic into our dresses. Having put so much pain and love into them, we now charged them with peace, with understanding, with intention, with lavender. . . We grew up together. All of us. Her mother, my father, my brother (her cousin), her Gram, my MawMaw...even Logan (my childhood friend, highschool sweetheart, and forever love). With our strength united we made our own ritual of laying our ghosts to rest, of healing our hearts. And together we choose to stay in this life, to move through the pain, and to live and love to the fullest. We are endless sources of inspiration for one another, now more than ever. Connected. A vision of inifinity. Cousins. Sisters. Friends. . . "How do you do it How are you so strong" - "With the same blood that runs in your veins" . . We always wanted adventure. I think we're finally realizing life is the biggest one of them all. . . 📸: @b.happycamper . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #findingpurplesummer #griefandpraise #senseofadventure #griefjourney . . #adventurestory #marykateandashleyforever #cousinmischief #camperlife #hippiegypsy #ontheroadagain #crosscountryroadtrip #keepitwild #cherokeeheritage #nativeamericanroots #shaman #storyteller #storytellerphotography #griefjourney #griefandloss #griefpoetry #griefshare #sayinggoodbye #healing #healer #healerlife #alternativellifestyle #magic #witches

And when we got to the lavender field in Tumalo, Oregon, the wildfire smoke lifted just for us, just for the day. I took off my mask and breathed in lavender, meditating in the fields, dedicating a practice of yoga to peace within me and throughout all grieving hearts, playing with the house golden retriever, laying my brother to rest and aiding his transcendence, finding purple summer down to the bottom of my heart, down to the bottom of my soul. Imprinting it there as it is imprinted on my body. .
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What does peace mean? It does not mean the absence of pain, I found. It means acceptance, and surrender, but not defeat. It means adjusting, accepting that we come to this life for a human experience, and spirituality does not save us from FEELING that experience. And that's okay, that's how it's meant to be. This is how we learn. This is how we grow. Peace means opening up to life, in all its triumph and all its tragedy. What is peace? Knowing we are all walking each other home. Gentleness. Kindness. Humility. Peace is sinking in to life, not rushing to the end. Peace is being. Peace is self compasion, self care, self love. It is forgiveness. It is allowing everyone their own individual journey. It is honoring the human experience, mind, body and soul. In peace there is no rush, only stillness of the soul, even in action. It is a deep knowing that all is as it should be, that love conquers in the end. .
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Peace is not the absence of pain. It isn't always happiness. It isn't putting your head in the sand and ignoring the plights of our fellow man. And it certainly isn't always bliss. Peace is essentially a meditation, a practice, a lifestyle. .
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 #findingpurplesummer 📸: @b.happycamper .
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 #meghealsgrief
 #meghealswith
 #practiceofpresence
 #meditation
 #peaceandlove
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 #ritualtattoo #memorialtattoo #tattooedwomen #holistichealing #healing #healerlife #griefandpraise #shaman #shamanheart #flowers #herbalremedy #herbalmedicine #selfcare #selflove #compassion #emotionalhealing #mindbodysoul #spirituality #worldpeace #voiceoftheheart #yogainnature #travelinghealer #transcendence #clairaudient

2018-11-07 15:44   66 2

 

And when we got to the lavender field in Tumalo, Oregon, the wildfire smoke lifted just for us, just for the day. I took off my mask and breathed in lavender, meditating in the fields, dedicating a practice of yoga to peace within me and throughout all grieving hearts, playing with the house golden retriever, laying my brother to rest and aiding his transcendence, finding purple summer down to the bottom of my heart, down to the bottom of my soul. Imprinting it there as it is imprinted on my body. . . What does peace mean It does not mean the absence of pain, I found. It means acceptance, and surrender, but not defeat. It means adjusting, accepting that we come to this life for a human experience, and spirituality does not save us from FEELING that experience. And that's okay, that's how it's meant to be. This is how we learn. This is how we grow. Peace means opening up to life, in all its triumph and all its tragedy. What is peace Knowing we are all walking each other home. Gentleness. Kindness. Humility. Peace is sinking in to life, not rushing to the end. Peace is being. Peace is self compasion, self care, self love. It is forgiveness. It is allowing everyone their own individual journey. It is honoring the human experience, mind, body and soul. In peace there is no rush, only stillness of the soul, even in action. It is a deep knowing that all is as it should be, that love conquers in the end. . . Peace is not the absence of pain. It isn't always happiness. It isn't putting your head in the sand and ignoring the plights of our fellow man. And it certainly isn't always bliss. Peace is essentially a meditation, a practice, a lifestyle. . . #findingpurplesummer 📸: @b.happycamper . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #practiceofpresence #meditation #peaceandlove . . . #ritualtattoo #memorialtattoo #tattooedwomen #holistichealing #healing #healerlife #griefandpraise #shaman #shamanheart #flowers #herbalremedy #herbalmedicine #selfcare #selflove #compassion #emotionalhealing #mindbodysoul #spirituality #worldpeace #voiceoftheheart #yogainnature #travelinghealer #transcendence #clairaudient

Even the fake flowers at the mall were purple for me. 💜 
 #findingpurplesummer
 #meghealsgrief
 #meghealswith
 #purplesummer 
 #reflection
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Throwback #saturdaythings

2018-11-03 20:29   61 2

 

Even the fake flowers at the mall were purple for me. 💜 #findingpurplesummer #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #purplesummer #reflection . . Throwback #saturdaythings

One single purple flower, sticking out after a difficult, dreary day, under a grey sky. .
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Mantra: Breathe. .
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Going into the last week of year one of the loss of my brother. Year 1 of #findingpurplesummer. Ramping up the #purplesummer posts this week and next. In honor of him, and myself, in reflection of my processing grief and turning it into praise. 💜 .
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 #meghealsgrief
 #meghealswith 
 #meditation 
 #gratitude
 #griefandpraise
 #flowers
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 #soulsearchingjourney #griefsupport #griefjourney #griefandloss #griefshare #wanderlust #healingjourney #healerlife #iamlight #hearthealing #naturephotography #selfcare #sabbatical #travelbreak  #shaman  #healer #medicinewoman #selflovewarrior #kindness #compassion #sayinggoodbye #holistichealing

2018-10-30 21:37   66 4

 

One single purple flower, sticking out after a difficult, dreary day, under a grey sky. . . Mantra: Breathe. . . Going into the last week of year one of the loss of my brother. Year 1 of #findingpurplesummer. Ramping up the #purplesummer posts this week and next. In honor of him, and myself, in reflection of my processing grief and turning it into praise. 💜 . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #meditation #gratitude #griefandpraise #flowers . . #soulsearchingjourney #griefsupport #griefjourney #griefandloss #griefshare #wanderlust #healingjourney #healerlife #iamlight #hearthealing #naturephotography #selfcare #sabbatical #travelbreak #shaman #healer #medicinewoman #selflovewarrior #kindness #compassion #sayinggoodbye #holistichealing

"May the long-time sun
Shine upon you
All love surround you
And the pure light within you 
Guide your way on" 💜🙏 #meghealsgrief
 #meghealswith 
 #surrender 
 #love
 #sunsalutations
 #kundalini
 #openheart
 #energyhealing
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 #findingpurplesummer

2018-10-20 19:03   71 3

 

"May the long-time sun Shine upon you All love surround you And the pure light within you Guide your way on" 💜🙏 #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #surrender #love #sunsalutations #kundalini #openheart #energyhealing . . #findingpurplesummer

Medicinal lavender bubble bath, memorial tattoo photoshoot, & meditation. 💜
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 #findingpurplesummer means finding beauty on the other side of grief. .
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My lavender tattoo was the first in a series of memorial tattoos. It memorializes my brother, Quinten, and was a commitment to find purple summer. Quinten loves lavender, and used it medicinally on his time here on Earth. I use "loves" because he still "IS", he still exists. .
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He used it for anxiety and insomnia, now I use it as well. It's also great for skin, and can be used for sunburn. It can be used in tea form, essential oil, compress, or bath. .
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In memorializing him in this way, I said "He's always with me". I consoled myself that I would always have a reminder to grieve, as I was extremely panicked that I would forget him, and forget to deal with my trauma. It reminds me to grow. It reminds me of waves, seasons, and the circle of life. It brings me beauty every day. It brought me some release and a sense of control over something in my life: my body, my style, the way I wanted to present myself to the world. It helped me to talk about my loss more openly, and become more comfortable with the piece of my identity that is someone who has lost a sibling. It was an act of acceptance and surrender, to what had to become my new normal. Being tattooed is a meditation for me. My tattoos help me heal. .
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My memorial tattoos are a way to physicalize and symbolize an internal pain. This one is on my forearm, a way to literally "wear my heart on my sleeve". I love it. I love him. 💜
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 #meghealsgrief
 #meghealswith 
 #purplesummer
 #lavender
 #memorialtattoo
 #medicinalherbs 
 #meditation
 #selfcare

2018-10-18 23:01   249 12

 

Medicinal lavender bubble bath, memorial tattoo photoshoot, & meditation. 💜 . . #findingpurplesummer means finding beauty on the other side of grief. . . My lavender tattoo was the first in a series of memorial tattoos. It memorializes my brother, Quinten, and was a commitment to find purple summer. Quinten loves lavender, and used it medicinally on his time here on Earth. I use "loves" because he still "IS", he still exists. . . He used it for anxiety and insomnia, now I use it as well. It's also great for skin, and can be used for sunburn. It can be used in tea form, essential oil, compress, or bath. . . In memorializing him in this way, I said "He's always with me". I consoled myself that I would always have a reminder to grieve, as I was extremely panicked that I would forget him, and forget to deal with my trauma. It reminds me to grow. It reminds me of waves, seasons, and the circle of life. It brings me beauty every day. It brought me some release and a sense of control over something in my life: my body, my style, the way I wanted to present myself to the world. It helped me to talk about my loss more openly, and become more comfortable with the piece of my identity that is someone who has lost a sibling. It was an act of acceptance and surrender, to what had to become my new normal. Being tattooed is a meditation for me. My tattoos help me heal. . . My memorial tattoos are a way to physicalize and symbolize an internal pain. This one is on my forearm, a way to literally "wear my heart on my sleeve". I love it. I love him. 💜 . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #purplesummer #lavender #memorialtattoo #medicinalherbs #meditation #selfcare

“Randy and the Cheese Cave” 
 #randyspart3 an #adventurestory
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Although this is @mesamarket, we will forever call it “Randy’s”.
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When we went back to this farmer’s market in the middle of the dessert, we counted houses along the way, maybe 13... in several miles. When we arrived, I didn’t really notice, because my sunglasses were lavender tinted, but @b.happycamper and @workcamperninja noticed the whole store was in shades of purple. They did not reveal this to me until we left. .
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We were amazed in the store. Everything was lovely. We checked out every little thing, and the man who worked there was so kind, generous, inviting, dare I say, magical. He was older, wise, happy, and full of life. He started giving us samples of his cave aged cheeses. When Brooke asked if it was really in a cave, he said “...Well, it’s in a hole” and she excitedly asked, “Can I see it!?” And so he took us!
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Swipe ⬅️to the next pic
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There, in the underground cheesehole was a door. Very Alice in Wonderland like.
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Swipe ⬅️ again
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There were 2 snakeskins to the left. Randy told us all about the snake, how long he is, a name which I don’t recall, and that the snake comes there to shed! Then he opened the door and went into the cheese cave, pulling out from one of the sealed tubs of cheese, a very large wheel of RAW cheese, which the store was out of, and bringing it upstairs for us to sample. (We ended up investing in some as well). .
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TO BE CONTINUED ...
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First 📸: @b.happycamper 
Others by me. Can you tell which one of is the photographer of the bunch? 😂
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 #meghealsgrief
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 #storytelling
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 #findingpurplesummer
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 #vortex #magic #cheese #snakes #hearthealing #healingvibes #travelinghealer #gratitude #griefjourney #keepitwild #wanderlust #storyteller #mystic #newage #storytellerphotography #senseofadventure #marykateandashleyforever #cousinmischief #camperlife #hippiegypsy #ontheroadagain #crosscountryroadtrip #tripping #desert

2018-10-18 00:10   55 3

 

“Randy and the Cheese Cave” #randyspart3 an #adventurestory . . Although this is @mesamarket, we will forever call it “Randy’s”. . . When we went back to this farmer’s market in the middle of the dessert, we counted houses along the way, maybe 13... in several miles. When we arrived, I didn’t really notice, because my sunglasses were lavender tinted, but @b.happycamper and @workcamperninja noticed the whole store was in shades of purple. They did not reveal this to me until we left. . . We were amazed in the store. Everything was lovely. We checked out every little thing, and the man who worked there was so kind, generous, inviting, dare I say, magical. He was older, wise, happy, and full of life. He started giving us samples of his cave aged cheeses. When Brooke asked if it was really in a cave, he said “...Well, it’s in a hole” and she excitedly asked, “Can I see it!” And so he took us! . . Swipe ⬅️to the next pic . . There, in the underground cheesehole was a door. Very Alice in Wonderland like. . . Swipe ⬅️ again . . There were 2 snakeskins to the left. Randy told us all about the snake, how long he is, a name which I don’t recall, and that the snake comes there to shed! Then he opened the door and went into the cheese cave, pulling out from one of the sealed tubs of cheese, a very large wheel of RAW cheese, which the store was out of, and bringing it upstairs for us to sample. (We ended up investing in some as well). . . TO BE CONTINUED ... . . First 📸: @b.happycamper Others by me. Can you tell which one of is the photographer of the bunch 😂 . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #storytelling . . #findingpurplesummer . #vortex #magic #cheese #snakes #hearthealing #healingvibes #travelinghealer #gratitude #griefjourney #keepitwild #wanderlust #storyteller #mystic #newage #storytellerphotography #senseofadventure #marykateandashleyforever #cousinmischief #camperlife #hippiegypsy #ontheroadagain #crosscountryroadtrip #tripping #desert

"We can alchemize anger into action. We can alchemize inspiration into creation, compost guilt into generosity. We MUST alchemize hardship into healing." ~Many Moons, 2018 Vol. 2
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📸:@b.happycamper
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 #meghealsgrief 
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 #shadowwork
 #lightwork 
 #meditation
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2018-10-09 21:31   67 7

 

"We can alchemize anger into action. We can alchemize inspiration into creation, compost guilt into generosity. We MUST alchemize hardship into healing." ~Many Moons, 2018 Vol. 2 Emphasis added . . 📸:@b.happycamper . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #shadowwork #lightwork #meditation #findingpurplesummer

Synchronicity: "meaningful coincidences; when two or more events coincide seemingly without cause, but have deep meaning" 💜
I recieved these two pictures in a time span of a few hours, on a very difficult morning. 💜
They came from two individuals who do not know each other, and to whom I had not spoken to in a while. 💜
I had not publicized my current emotional state, and it had been several days since I had publicized this phenomenon of friends sending me purple flowers independently of one another. 💜
One was deeply meaningful because of where it was taken. The other was deeply meaningful because of who it was taken by. Both were deeply meaningful because of the extraordinary timing of the events. 💜
Synchronicity: signs from the universe that we are connected, that there is a higher power at work, that it all connects, and that there is a purpose. 💜
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 #meghealsgrief
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 #synchronicity 
 #findingpurplesummer

2018-10-06 15:35   52 5

 

Synchronicity: "meaningful coincidences; when two or more events coincide seemingly without cause, but have deep meaning" 💜 I recieved these two pictures in a time span of a few hours, on a very difficult morning. 💜 They came from two individuals who do not know each other, and to whom I had not spoken to in a while. 💜 I had not publicized my current emotional state, and it had been several days since I had publicized this phenomenon of friends sending me purple flowers independently of one another. 💜 One was deeply meaningful because of where it was taken. The other was deeply meaningful because of who it was taken by. Both were deeply meaningful because of the extraordinary timing of the events. 💜 Synchronicity: signs from the universe that we are connected, that there is a higher power at work, that it all connects, and that there is a purpose. 💜 💜 💜 #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #synchronicity #findingpurplesummer

Looking out at the mesa over this garden I felt...indescribable. This farm was never planned. We were leaving Colorado Springs to go straight to Mona, Utah. First stop, the #findingpurplesummer lavender fields. This was the big event, and as our return date was fluid, we wanted to make sure we got to the point, cut to the chase. .
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But let me tell you, @b.happycamper and @megheals have never been able to cut to the chase. 😂 Coming from a Storytelling family, we are Storytellers. Which is why I’m not surprised we’re spinning this tale for you here. Oh, this is what we grew up to do? Adventure stories? Yep. Given our Mary Kate and Ashley Adventure/Mystery days, not shocking at all. Still doesn’t minimize the many conversations and emotions like…”Is this really our life? Is this really what it turned in to? We're really here now, because they're really all gone? … and oh, by the way, I’m really happy you’re here”
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At the last minute we decided to break up the days and go to Capital Reef National Park. Where we would stay one night, and head out to Mona, Day 3. As we were driving in, we saw “Organic Coffee” on the sign. We saw there was a Farmer’s Market, @mesafarmmarket. We decided to find a place to camp, park the camper, and drive back. We went back, not this day, not in this dress, and not suspecting this to be part of our #findingpurplesummer, we just thought we were getting some fresh veggies, and supporting local and organic farms. And there we met Randy. .
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📸: @b.happycamper .
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 #meghealsgrief
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 #randyspart2

2018-10-03 11:31   51 7

 

Looking out at the mesa over this garden I felt...indescribable. This farm was never planned. We were leaving Colorado Springs to go straight to Mona, Utah. First stop, the #findingpurplesummer lavender fields. This was the big event, and as our return date was fluid, we wanted to make sure we got to the point, cut to the chase. . >> But let me tell you, @b.happycamper and @megheals have never been able to cut to the chase. 😂 Coming from a Storytelling family, we are Storytellers. Which is why I’m not surprised we’re spinning this tale for you here. Oh, this is what we grew up to do Adventure stories Yep. Given our Mary Kate and Ashley Adventure/Mystery days, not shocking at all. Still doesn’t minimize the many conversations and emotions like…”Is this really our life Is this really what it turned in to We're really here now, because they're really all gone … and oh, by the way, I’m really happy you’re here” . >> At the last minute we decided to break up the days and go to Capital Reef National Park. Where we would stay one night, and head out to Mona, Day 3. As we were driving in, we saw “Organic Coffee” on the sign. We saw there was a Farmer’s Market, @mesafarmmarket. We decided to find a place to camp, park the camper, and drive back. We went back, not this day, not in this dress, and not suspecting this to be part of our #findingpurplesummer, we just thought we were getting some fresh veggies, and supporting local and organic farms. And there we met Randy. . . . 📸: @b.happycamper . . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #storytelling #randyspart2

"As to your light, so too your shadow."
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My brother used to say this. I’m not even sure which variation of this quote he heard, or from whom, but through his passing I’ve come to know this truth:
In owning our darkest stories, we also own our lightest truths. .
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In bending a knee to our small self, our fearful self, our darker self, we create awareness. When we have this awareness of the shadow self we can be careful where it is placed, gain power and control over where it casts, tap in to our free will, create our higher self, emanate more light, and cast less shadow. .
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Think of all the places the shadow may fall without our awareness. How out of control we might feel. The darkness it can create, the things we might say out of fear, deep hurt, anger, if we are not aware. Who it may fall on, what it might cast into darkness. .
It is necessarily a part of us, attached to us, it is ALWAYS present. But we can choose where it casts, when it casts, if it casts, the more aware we are of it and the more light we choose to shine on it.
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Bowing to my shadow I affirm: "You are safe. You are loved. You can come with me, but you do not get to be in charge. I will take care of you." #namaste🙏 .
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📸: @b.happycamper .
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 #meghealsgrief
 #meghealswith
 #mantra
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 #affirmations
 #soulawakening 
 #soulsearchingjourney
 #healingenergy #healingvibes  #energymedicine #naturewisdom 
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 #healing #healer #shaman #shamanism #energyhealer #medicinewoman #shamanheart #innerwisdom #iamconnected #lightservice #traumarecovery
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2018-09-29 15:18   71 11

 

"As to your light, so too your shadow." . My brother used to say this. I’m not even sure which variation of this quote he heard, or from whom, but through his passing I’ve come to know this truth: In owning our darkest stories, we also own our lightest truths. . . In bending a knee to our small self, our fearful self, our darker self, we create awareness. When we have this awareness of the shadow self we can be careful where it is placed, gain power and control over where it casts, tap in to our free will, create our higher self, emanate more light, and cast less shadow. . . Think of all the places the shadow may fall without our awareness. How out of control we might feel. The darkness it can create, the things we might say out of fear, deep hurt, anger, if we are not aware. Who it may fall on, what it might cast into darkness. . It is necessarily a part of us, attached to us, it is ALWAYS present. But we can choose where it casts, when it casts, if it casts, the more aware we are of it and the more light we choose to shine on it. . . Bowing to my shadow I affirm: "You are safe. You are loved. You can come with me, but you do not get to be in charge. I will take care of you." #namaste🙏 . . . 📸: @b.happycamper . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #mantra #meditation #affirmations #soulawakening #soulsearchingjourney #healingenergy #healingvibes #energymedicine #naturewisdom #selflove #selfcare #selfawarenessjourney . . . #healing #healer #shaman #shamanism #energyhealer #medicinewoman #shamanheart #innerwisdom #iamconnected #lightservice #traumarecovery #findingpurplesummer #spiritualhealing #awakening #emotionalhealing

Ya'll! It has become a phenomenon that friends, family, and aquaintances, are sending me purple and pink flowers, independantly and irrespectively of one another. I'm so touched. YOU HEAL ME! 💜  #findingpurplesummer
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 #sendflowers
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2018-09-25 19:53   46 0

 

Ya'll! It has become a phenomenon that friends, family, and aquaintances, are sending me purple and pink flowers, independantly and irrespectively of one another. I'm so touched. YOU HEAL ME! 💜 #findingpurplesummer . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #friendship #flowers #nature #beauty #meditation #grattitude . . . #sendflowers #actsofkindness #healing #griefandpraise

Last day on the Cape with my mom. Visiting the home of an artist, illustrator, creator, brilliant mind. Tapping in to my creativity, and shaking my head at the weird idiosyncrasies between Gorey and my brother, a poet, sage, writer, creative, brilliant mind. .
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 #gorey #capecod #museum #tourist #writers #history #travel #travelbreak #sabbatical #eastcoast #adventures #healing #healerlife #artistlife #griefjourney #takeadeepbreath #patienceiskey #selflovejourney #selfawarenessjourney #selfcare

2018-09-22 19:52   40 1

 

Last day on the Cape with my mom. Visiting the home of an artist, illustrator, creator, brilliant mind. Tapping in to my creativity, and shaking my head at the weird idiosyncrasies between Gorey and my brother, a poet, sage, writer, creative, brilliant mind. . . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #art #connection #simplicity #findingpurplesummer . . . #gorey #capecod #museum #tourist #writers #history #travel #travelbreak #sabbatical #eastcoast #adventures #healing #healerlife #artistlife #griefjourney #takeadeepbreath #patienceiskey #selflovejourney #selfawarenessjourney #selfcare

Those wildfires...so over it.
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When we got to Bend, Oregon to see the lavender field, first stop, ACE hardware. I have asthma, so to get my #purplesummer, and stay alive myself, a particle mask was absolutely necessary. Wrapped in tie, duh! .
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The smoke made me tired, it gave me headaches and it absolutely terrified me. Sudden, unexpected death is, not shockingly, an intense anxiety I work with now, and I couldn't breathe...
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With this I'll start with #meghealsasthma #meghealswith #medicinalherbs
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Anxiety: What comforts you? What might make the anxiety lessen? For me, in this instance, it was walking around with a particle mask on, for my health. It gave me safety, and security. 
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Asthma: First thing that comes to mind is mullein! Mullein tea, or even chewing and ingesting mullein leaf helps significantly. When I'm sick with sinus or respiratory illnesses, this is a go to. I haven't tried for a specific attack, but I do use it for prolonged periods of asthma inflammation. .
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More to come! .
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 #breakthestigma #anxietydisorder #anxietyrelief #stressdisorder #stressrelief #stigmafighter #herb #holistichealing #holisticmedicine #holisticlifestyle #healing #healer #healerlife #findingpurplesummer #griefjourney  #takeadeepbreath #medicinewoman #selfcare #sabbatical #travelbreak #herbalmedicine #tea

2018-09-21 14:54   73 2

 

Those wildfires...so over it. . . When we got to Bend, Oregon to see the lavender field, first stop, ACE hardware. I have asthma, so to get my #purplesummer, and stay alive myself, a particle mask was absolutely necessary. Wrapped in tie, duh! . . The smoke made me tired, it gave me headaches and it absolutely terrified me. Sudden, unexpected death is, not shockingly, an intense anxiety I work with now, and I couldn't breathe... . . . With this I'll start with #meghealsasthma #meghealswith #medicinalherbs . . Anxiety: What comforts you What might make the anxiety lessen For me, in this instance, it was walking around with a particle mask on, for my health. It gave me safety, and security. #selfawarenessjourney . . . Asthma: First thing that comes to mind is mullein! Mullein tea, or even chewing and ingesting mullein leaf helps significantly. When I'm sick with sinus or respiratory illnesses, this is a go to. I haven't tried for a specific attack, but I do use it for prolonged periods of asthma inflammation. . . More to come! . . #breakthestigma #anxietydisorder #anxietyrelief #stressdisorder #stressrelief #stigmafighter #herb #holistichealing #holisticmedicine #holisticlifestyle #healing #healer #healerlife #findingpurplesummer #griefjourney #takeadeepbreath #medicinewoman #selfcare #sabbatical #travelbreak #herbalmedicine #tea

"Let the Sunshine In...and the Smoke" 
The day we arrived in Mona, Utah to see the lavender fields, I was sick. I needed to get to a pharmacy to get antibiotics, we had been camping, I was in pain, we barely were getting service again, we were towing the camper, there weren't many big cities, towns even, on the way...need I continue? .
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Our site was what you might call a desert swamp. It was hot, sticky, tons of flies, dry by us, marshlands on the lake over the hill, and all the bugs that come with it. .
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Brooke and Justin went to a walmart --- "WHAT? THERE'S A WALMART!?"
"COFFEE TOO!"----
And then, Brooke calls me in the camper. --- "Meg..." .
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Long story short, the Young Living lavender fields had a dry summer, so they harvested 3 weeks early, 5 days before we got there. No purple summer. .
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 #takeadeepbreath #meditationismedicine #yogaeverydamnday #travel #naturetherapy #selflove #selfcare #thistooshallpass #griefandpraise #gratitude
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"That's okay." .
Utah had been great so far, and there were still some AMAZING places on the itinerary. I would still get to heal. The lavender fields..."well I guess it wasn't meant to happen right now".
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But we dug, mostly Brooke dug, into lavender fields across the U.S. .
"We just harvested..."
"We harvested ...
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"We're in bloom. But its the end of the season, its all turned white"
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No purple summer. .
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"Yes, of course we're in bloom."
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Bend, Oregon has a local lavender field. .
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"I'm in if you're in?"
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We packed up and drove towards Oregon. .
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Wildfire smoke. .
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 #radicalacceptance #meditate #cbt #om #yoga #mantrameditation
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If you have a meditative practice in place BEFORE things go terribly wrong, then you have something to grab onto in the #groundlessness of life. Whether its mantra, breathwork, yoga, cbt, tapping...the practice can get harder for a bit, but our innate ability to heal and grow, mixed with a lot of practice, commitment, and dedication, is what we refer to as #strength. .
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 #Namaste🙏
 #meghealgrief #meghealswith #findingpurplesummer 📸: @b.happycamper

2018-09-14 17:45   93 29

 

"Let the Sunshine In...and the Smoke" The day we arrived in Mona, Utah to see the lavender fields, I was sick. I needed to get to a pharmacy to get antibiotics, we had been camping, I was in pain, we barely were getting service again, we were towing the camper, there weren't many big cities, towns even, on the way...need I continue . . Our site was what you might call a desert swamp. It was hot, sticky, tons of flies, dry by us, marshlands on the lake over the hill, and all the bugs that come with it. . . Brooke and Justin went to a walmart --- "WHAT THERE'S A WALMART!" "COFFEE TOO!"---- And then, Brooke calls me in the camper. --- "Meg..." . . Long story short, the Young Living lavender fields had a dry summer, so they harvested 3 weeks early, 5 days before we got there. No purple summer. . . . #takeadeepbreath #meditationismedicine #yogaeverydamnday #travel #naturetherapy #selflove #selfcare #thistooshallpass #griefandpraise #gratitude . . . "That's okay." . Utah had been great so far, and there were still some AMAZING places on the itinerary. I would still get to heal. The lavender fields..."well I guess it wasn't meant to happen right now". . . But we dug, mostly Brooke dug, into lavender fields across the U.S. . "We just harvested..." "We harvested ... "We harv..." . . "We're in bloom. But its the end of the season, its all turned white" . . No purple summer. . . "Yes, of course we're in bloom." . . Bend, Oregon has a local lavender field. . . "I'm in if you're in" . . We packed up and drove towards Oregon. . . Wildfire smoke. . . #radicalacceptance #meditate #cbt #om #yoga #mantrameditation . . If you have a meditative practice in place BEFORE things go terribly wrong, then you have something to grab onto in the #groundlessness of life. Whether its mantra, breathwork, yoga, cbt, tapping...the practice can get harder for a bit, but our innate ability to heal and grow, mixed with a lot of practice, commitment, and dedication, is what we refer to as #strength. . . #Namaste🙏 #meghealgrief #meghealswith #findingpurplesummer 📸: @b.happycamper

"Finding Purple Summer"
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>> For a while I've been using #findingpurplesummer. Some may already know what that means, but for those who don't: Purple Summer is a song, that to me literally means the purple flowers that bloom in summer, and figuratively means the beauty you can find on the other side of grief.
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>> I sang this song at my brother's memorial, 10 months ago, with a group of our friends. The night before, I got a memorial tattoo of lavender, a purple flower that helps calm you, that helps anxiety, that helps you sleep. A purple flower that was my brother's favorite healing herb. He slept with it under his pillow, it helped his insomnia, I'm sure it helped his anxiety too. He always loved baths, I'm sure he bathed in it, and I've heard from a friend he lived with in Colorado that they made fresh picked spinach and lavender smoothies every morning.
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>>After the memorial, my cousin, @b.happycamper (📸 for the trip), suggested we plan a trip to Utah to see the lavender fields the following summer. We went on this trip a couple of weeks ago.
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>> I use #findingpurplesummer when I am finding things to be grateful for. I use it when something brings me joyful connection to his spirit. I use it when I feel that my heart is capable of opening, softening, hugging the world once more. I use it when I find the beauty through the grief. .
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>> I found early on that my natural response to grief was to try to find something to be grateful for each morning, otherwise, it was so dark, so painful in my world, that there would've been no point in living.
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Gratitude and Praise heal Grief.
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Gratitude and Praise heal Grief. .

Gratitude. And Praise. Heal. Grief. .

Grief is non-linear. My processing of it is non-linear. Why would my story be any different? .
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My #findingpurplesummer trip is linked by the hashtag. Feel free to journey with me through grief and praise. 💜
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Photo taken at @mesafarmmarket

2018-09-13 16:36   76 3

 

"Finding Purple Summer" . >> For a while I've been using #findingpurplesummer. Some may already know what that means, but for those who don't: Purple Summer is a song, that to me literally means the purple flowers that bloom in summer, and figuratively means the beauty you can find on the other side of grief. . . >> I sang this song at my brother's memorial, 10 months ago, with a group of our friends. The night before, I got a memorial tattoo of lavender, a purple flower that helps calm you, that helps anxiety, that helps you sleep. A purple flower that was my brother's favorite healing herb. He slept with it under his pillow, it helped his insomnia, I'm sure it helped his anxiety too. He always loved baths, I'm sure he bathed in it, and I've heard from a friend he lived with in Colorado that they made fresh picked spinach and lavender smoothies every morning. . >>After the memorial, my cousin, @b.happycamper (📸 for the trip), suggested we plan a trip to Utah to see the lavender fields the following summer. We went on this trip a couple of weeks ago. . >> I use #findingpurplesummer when I am finding things to be grateful for. I use it when something brings me joyful connection to his spirit. I use it when I feel that my heart is capable of opening, softening, hugging the world once more. I use it when I find the beauty through the grief. . . >> I found early on that my natural response to grief was to try to find something to be grateful for each morning, otherwise, it was so dark, so painful in my world, that there would've been no point in living. . Gratitude and Praise heal Grief. . Gratitude and Praise heal Grief. . Gratitude. And Praise. Heal. Grief. . Grief is non-linear. My processing of it is non-linear. Why would my story be any different . . My #findingpurplesummer trip is linked by the hashtag. Feel free to journey with me through grief and praise. 💜 . . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #medicinalherbs #lavender #purplesummer #griefandpraise #randyspart1 Photo taken at @mesafarmmarket

I love tea! Most of us have a tea or coffee #ritual. Every morning, after work, before bed, etc. Peach Leaves are ALWAYS part of my grief tea blend. Sometimes I add or take away other herbs, but I'm pretty committed to my peach leaf. .
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While 📸: @b.happycamper , @workcamperninja and I were on our #findingpurplesummer trip in Capital Reef National Park, Utah, we came across several Mormon run ORCHARDS IN the park, where I was able to pick my own peaches, and peach leaves! On a trip, that was about finding peace and joy through the grief, that was about connecting with our passed loved ones, that was about honoring them, that was a dedicated grief and praise journey, we STUMBLE upon my favorite herb for grief inside of a National Park, AND we're legally allowed to pick and remove said herbs from the park!?!?!?! Truly an amazing, heaven-sent, synchronous experience! Look at that view! .
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Opening to all that life has to offer. Praising nature. Noticing all the little miracles. Healing the heart. 💖

 #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #ritualhealing #ritualtea #griefandpraise

2018-09-10 17:14   67 3

 

I love tea! Most of us have a tea or coffee #ritual. Every morning, after work, before bed, etc. Peach Leaves are ALWAYS part of my grief tea blend. Sometimes I add or take away other herbs, but I'm pretty committed to my peach leaf. . . While 📸: @b.happycamper , @workcamperninja and I were on our #findingpurplesummer trip in Capital Reef National Park, Utah, we came across several Mormon run ORCHARDS IN the park, where I was able to pick my own peaches, and peach leaves! On a trip, that was about finding peace and joy through the grief, that was about connecting with our passed loved ones, that was about honoring them, that was a dedicated grief and praise journey, we STUMBLE upon my favorite herb for grief inside of a National Park, AND we're legally allowed to pick and remove said herbs from the park!!!! Truly an amazing, heaven-sent, synchronous experience! Look at that view! . . Opening to all that life has to offer. Praising nature. Noticing all the little miracles. Healing the heart. 💖 #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #ritualhealing #ritualtea #griefandpraise

I do ALL the therapy! Throughout many traumas, I have done #psychotherapy #cbt
 #physicaltherapy #yogatherapy #massagetherapy #retailtherapy #talktherapy #treetherapy
 #naturetherapy... Leave no stone unturned! Your healing may be in therapy. .

Because I travel and move a lot, and because I was confidant in my choice of therapist, I do over the phone therapy with a 
psychotherapist sometimes once a week, sometimes every other week, some times “as needed”. This picture was taken after my morning session with him while I was vacationing in Cali! Yesterday I had a session from my back porch in Colorado. .

In the past few months when I haven't been able to get to him quick enough, and I couldn’t figure out the complexity of my anxiety, depression, grief vortex, I'll call one of the many friends and confidants I can trust. My mom is a great thearapist, I am lucky in that, or I go to certain friends for certain sections of
life help because it’s something they can relate to or have been through. Use your web, your
network, your community! Tap in. .

Because I have SO much to sift through, I've also taken to using a journal when I talk with him. I write down quotes and insights he has that work for me, and throughout the week I write down subjects or topics that keep coming up that I need to work through. By the time we talk, we can have productive sessions that work through and RELEASE A LOT! .

Sidenote: There are therapists that will do Pay What You Can, or a sliding scale. Hopefully you can find what you need if you do a little research and a little digging in to that WEB of yours! 💗 .

Happy Healing! 
 #breakthestigma 
 #meghealswith
 #meghealsgrief 
 #findingpurplesummer

2018-09-06 17:31   75 11

 

I do ALL the therapy! Throughout many traumas, I have done #psychotherapy #cbt #physicaltherapy #yogatherapy #massagetherapy #retailtherapy #talktherapy #treetherapy #naturetherapy... Leave no stone unturned! Your healing may be in therapy. . Because I travel and move a lot, and because I was confidant in my choice of therapist, I do over the phone therapy with a psychotherapist sometimes once a week, sometimes every other week, some times “as needed”. This picture was taken after my morning session with him while I was vacationing in Cali! Yesterday I had a session from my back porch in Colorado. . In the past few months when I haven't been able to get to him quick enough, and I couldn’t figure out the complexity of my anxiety, depression, grief vortex, I'll call one of the many friends and confidants I can trust. My mom is a great thearapist, I am lucky in that, or I go to certain friends for certain sections of life help because it’s something they can relate to or have been through. Use your web, your network, your community! Tap in. . Because I have SO much to sift through, I've also taken to using a journal when I talk with him. I write down quotes and insights he has that work for me, and throughout the week I write down subjects or topics that keep coming up that I need to work through. By the time we talk, we can have productive sessions that work through and RELEASE A LOT! . Sidenote: There are therapists that will do Pay What You Can, or a sliding scale. Hopefully you can find what you need if you do a little research and a little digging in to that WEB of yours! 💗 . Happy Healing! #breakthestigma #meghealswith #meghealsgrief #findingpurplesummer

3x/day I take a tincture for mood stabilization, depression, anxiety and grief. This started with my brother's suicide 9 months ago. About 4 months later I was feeling pretty stable. I started to slowly ween myself off and was on a lower dose for a week or so, and then down to an as needed/emergency dose. Huge win! 
Then my best friend, and longtime romantic partner, passed away unexpectedly as well. FML. .

On top of everything else I was feeling, and grieving, I cried and cried that I “had to” take this medicine to function again. My mom and best friend encouraged me that I could get back to stability without it eventually, but now was not the time to have a problem with HERBAL medicine of all things! I’ve been taking it ever since.
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When I miss a dose it is a noticeable negative spiral effect, quickly. As opposed to some pharmaceutical anti-anxieties, and anti-depressants, I find herbal anti-anxieties and anti-depressants don’t have the fogginess, or anesthetizing effects that some people feel with pharmaceuticals. Instead of feeling numbed out and unmotivated, I feel more
capable of confronting and processing my grief, at a speed and intensity I can handle on a daily basis, without negative side effects.
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NOT that there is anything wrong with taking pharmaceuticals! But a lot of people struggle with not wanting to take them long term, or having negative side effects. If that’s you, herbal remedies are powerful and out there. Just another option you may not know is there! <3 Of course talk to a specialist and take what you feel is best, this is your UNIQUE journey after all!
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Also, life is messy, and these bottles are super beat up cause they come everywhere with me. .

 #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #herbalremedy #medicinalherbs #findingpurplesummer

I buy from @rosalieapothecary

2018-09-04 21:04   43 2

 

3x/day I take a tincture for mood stabilization, depression, anxiety and grief. This started with my brother's suicide 9 months ago. About 4 months later I was feeling pretty stable. I started to slowly ween myself off and was on a lower dose for a week or so, and then down to an as needed/emergency dose. Huge win! Then my best friend, and longtime romantic partner, passed away unexpectedly as well. FML. . On top of everything else I was feeling, and grieving, I cried and cried that I “had to” take this medicine to function again. My mom and best friend encouraged me that I could get back to stability without it eventually, but now was not the time to have a problem with HERBAL medicine of all things! I’ve been taking it ever since. . When I miss a dose it is a noticeable negative spiral effect, quickly. As opposed to some pharmaceutical anti-anxieties, and anti-depressants, I find herbal anti-anxieties and anti-depressants don’t have the fogginess, or anesthetizing effects that some people feel with pharmaceuticals. Instead of feeling numbed out and unmotivated, I feel more capable of confronting and processing my grief, at a speed and intensity I can handle on a daily basis, without negative side effects. . NOT that there is anything wrong with taking pharmaceuticals! But a lot of people struggle with not wanting to take them long term, or having negative side effects. If that’s you, herbal remedies are powerful and out there. Just another option you may not know is there! <3 Of course talk to a specialist and take what you feel is best, this is your UNIQUE journey after all! . Also, life is messy, and these bottles are super beat up cause they come everywhere with me. . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #herbalremedy #medicinalherbs #findingpurplesummer I buy from @rosalieapothecary

“Let the Sunshine In"
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In looking to nature and meditating on its ways we can learn how to live and love life more fully. Sunflowers grow towards the sun. They soak up the light, and reflect it back. They PRAISE that which gives them life. Express #grattitude for being alive and able to witness the #beauty of life. Praise and Grattitude - ways to surrender to the beauty of life, to that which gives AND takes away, ways to heal grief, ways to heal. .
📸: @b.happycamper
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 #meghealsgrief
 #meghealswith
 #sunsalutations
 #meditationismedicine 
 #findingpurplesummer

2018-09-03 17:50   74 2

 

“Let the Sunshine In" . In looking to nature and meditating on its ways we can learn how to live and love life more fully. Sunflowers grow towards the sun. They soak up the light, and reflect it back. They PRAISE that which gives them life. Express #grattitude for being alive and able to witness the #beauty of life. Praise and Grattitude - ways to surrender to the beauty of life, to that which gives AND takes away, ways to heal grief, ways to heal. . 📸: @b.happycamper . #meghealsgrief #meghealswith #sunsalutations #meditationismedicine #findingpurplesummer

The thing I’ve heard most in the past 9 months (as I lost my brother, and then my first partner,
and then my father, and then one of my oldest friends) has been “You’re so strong” and “I don’t
know how you do it.” I started feeling like maybe people are thinking I’m just made of steel and
doing what we’ve been taught to do in America for hard times: pull yourself up by your
bootstraps. Which I admittedly tried and failed, several times … because that doesn’t actually
work. Or maybe people are thinking I’m just meditating and writing poetry (which is what I’ve
been sharing on social media to be fair), a zen-master…which I am very far from, much to my
disappointment at first.
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When I started truly healing, the best way I know how, I started to question, “What AM I doing
actually? How AM I doing this?” and then: “How can I help others heal?” I thought, “it doesn’t do
anyone a bit of good to see me heal my grief, and only wonder “HOW!?” Because it ISN’T being
made of steel. It is not through sheer will. It is not through a single form of healing. It is through
a multi-modality approach to Holistic Healing. It is a process. It is a practice, a craft, an artform.
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If healing yourself holistically is something you want to learn HOW to do, FOLLOW
 #meghealswith for PRACTICAL tools for general healing, and #meghealsgrief for grief specific
healing. Not every tool will be your thing, and that’s okay! Take what resonates with you, and
leave the rest. Healing is individual. It’s all about building your UNIQUE toolkit for YOUR craft.
I’m honored to share, and blessed if it helps you heal in any way. Happy Healing! 📸: @hedricckk

 #meditation #meditationismedicine #medicinewoman #yoga #yogaeverydamnday #namaste #mindbodysoul #holstichealing #holisticmedicine #holisticlifestyle #healer #healing #healerlife #naturalhealing #selflovejourney #grattitude #goddessenergy #goddesses #witchywoman #shaman #shamanism #indigochild #findingpurplesummer #meghealswithpost1

2018-08-30 14:54   133 20

 

The thing I’ve heard most in the past 9 months (as I lost my brother, and then my first partner, and then my father, and then one of my oldest friends) has been “You’re so strong” and “I don’t know how you do it.” I started feeling like maybe people are thinking I’m just made of steel and doing what we’ve been taught to do in America for hard times: pull yourself up by your bootstraps. Which I admittedly tried and failed, several times … because that doesn’t actually work. Or maybe people are thinking I’m just meditating and writing poetry (which is what I’ve been sharing on social media to be fair), a zen-master…which I am very far from, much to my disappointment at first. . When I started truly healing, the best way I know how, I started to question, “What AM I doing actually How AM I doing this” and then: “How can I help others heal” I thought, “it doesn’t do anyone a bit of good to see me heal my grief, and only wonder “HOW!” Because it ISN’T being made of steel. It is not through sheer will. It is not through a single form of healing. It is through a multi-modality approach to Holistic Healing. It is a process. It is a practice, a craft, an artform. . If healing yourself holistically is something you want to learn HOW to do, FOLLOW #meghealswith for PRACTICAL tools for general healing, and #meghealsgrief for grief specific healing. Not every tool will be your thing, and that’s okay! Take what resonates with you, and leave the rest. Healing is individual. It’s all about building your UNIQUE toolkit for YOUR craft. I’m honored to share, and blessed if it helps you heal in any way. Happy Healing! 📸: @hedricckk #meditation #meditationismedicine #medicinewoman #yoga #yogaeverydamnday #namaste #mindbodysoul #holstichealing #holisticmedicine #holisticlifestyle #healer #healing #healerlife #naturalhealing #selflovejourney #grattitude #goddessenergy #goddesses #witchywoman #shaman #shamanism #indigochild #findingpurplesummer #meghealswithpost1

Warrior flow: Warrior 2, Peaceful Warrior, Humble Warrior into a bind. ...
It is important to me to flow through the warrior poses right now. I'm on a new adventure and I've been going through a trememndous amount of grief; I have to practice daily strength, balance, and gratitude to find humility and peace. Exhaling stress, fear, anxiety, inhaling knowing, peace, presence.
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For a moment in the middle I stopped to breathe, hands at heart center, and give thanks, take inventory in my mind, body, and soul, check in. Then, for balance, the same flow (or close) on the other side). ...
I like the bind because I can look up, instead of down, increasing intuition, vision, and balance, while gently opening my chest, and heart to release more grief and pain. ...
Its not perfect, but its my practice, and its something I can be proud of. Through all of my recent losses, I am finding ways to find peace and heal. Yoga is one of those ways. 
 #yogaeverydamnday
 #yogi #yoga #meditationismedicine
 #medicinewoman #namaste #warrior #gratitude #yogatherapy #healing #healerlife #mindbodysoul #prayer #meditation #findingpurplesummer #findingpurplesummer #sabbatical #travelbreak #travel #hippielife #hippiegypsy

2018-08-15 05:06   109 5

 

Warrior flow: Warrior 2, Peaceful Warrior, Humble Warrior into a bind. ... It is important to me to flow through the warrior poses right now. I'm on a new adventure and I've been going through a trememndous amount of grief; I have to practice daily strength, balance, and gratitude to find humility and peace. Exhaling stress, fear, anxiety, inhaling knowing, peace, presence. ... For a moment in the middle I stopped to breathe, hands at heart center, and give thanks, take inventory in my mind, body, and soul, check in. Then, for balance, the same flow (or close) on the other side). ... I like the bind because I can look up, instead of down, increasing intuition, vision, and balance, while gently opening my chest, and heart to release more grief and pain. ... Its not perfect, but its my practice, and its something I can be proud of. Through all of my recent losses, I am finding ways to find peace and heal. Yoga is one of those ways. #yogaeverydamnday #yogi #yoga #meditationismedicine #medicinewoman #namaste #warrior #gratitude #yogatherapy #healing #healerlife #mindbodysoul #prayer #meditation #findingpurplesummer #findingpurplesummer #sabbatical #travelbreak #travel #hippielife #hippiegypsy