I am so touched and grateful for all the emails and messages checking in on me! And I am sorry I haven’t been responsive until now. A couple of months ago I finally started writing my book. I have known for years that this day would come, but, I have fought it as well. Writing the story of how God and a thousand decisions to fight resulted in healing from severe childhood abuse, human trafficking by my father, running away as a young teen and the resulting hunger/homelessness/fear and loneliness has potential to encourage others. I hope the story of surviving those circumstances, graduating college then law school, raising a family to never know such pain, and to have a heart that is capable of joy/love/trust and peace would bring hope to others that might be suffering. However, there is a cost in telling the tale. It has been excruciatingly painful to “go back there” and relive moments that are nothing short of horrific. And as I have written, I withdrew as a consequence. I decided that for this Christmas season I would take a break from my writing. So far, I am halfway through the book so that is enough progress to feel comfortable with the pause. I need to remember and see/feel the beauty and love of this Christmas season. Laugh with my family. Smell the cookies, bread, and other “yummies” baking in my ovens. Watch the joy in my little newborn nieces eyes and the eyes of my children. My sweet husband has taken me to Longwood Gardens this weekend to celebrate our 12 year anniversary and to comfort my spirit. I am so grateful. Here is the heart of a poinsettia that I fell in love with today. Somehow it seemed appropriate. I will be sharing more during this season until I once again return to less enjoyable activities for a time. Once it is done though— I will be able to close the book and enjoy the Spring. Thank you all again for your kindness and support!!!
“Soon” was a lot sooner than I was expecting. The two biggest buds on my assorted winter holidays cactus (Schlumbergera truncata) fully opened today. I had been expecting them to take a good couple days longer to bloom. The plant has quite a few more buds also, but all are significantly smaller than these two were.