𝐇𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐞 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐡𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐝!
How many times have you not tried or done something because you believed it wasn’t possible
How many times have you gave up because it got to hard and/or felt like it was to much work
GUILTY! I have spent much of my life starting and stopping things because they got to hard, they were overwhelming, I was scared, it felt like to much work and effort (that I hate to admit) or I felt it was something I wasn’t deserving of.
Then I became a mom. The overwhelm tenfold. Wow, I mean people warn you but until you experience it no idea.
Now the pressure is on not only to succeed or be strong and do powerful things for myself but to do it for my children. Lead by example and show them they are worthy of anything.
This last two years I was showing them self care in the form of exercise, nutrition and Pd etc. Then I crashed and burned with a health issue and wasn’t allowed to exercise. Cue mental breakdown alert.
I worried what this was teaching my kids. To quit That it is overdoing it But no this is another excuse to show them that life has ups and downs. With every up there may be a down. But with every down there is also an up. I get to show them self care in listening to my body. Experimenting with nutrition and movement and sleep and meditation and so much more. I get to show them how to come back bigger and stronger. That excites me.
So you see I may have been quieter here as of late but it’s me building for a bigger better comeback with a much bigger impact.
So I ask you. What is it you have been holding back on doing due to fear or overwhelm Drop it below or dm and let’s chat
/ / DISAPPOINTED / /
The definition of disappointment is: sad or displeased because someone or something has failed to fulfil one's hopes or expectations.
Don’t allow a story that YOU’VE made up in your own head dictate whether or not you’ve succeeded. Write your own story, fail. Get back up again. Fail, try harder. Just never quit.
WHAT IS TRAUMA 🥺⠀
“Trauma is the response to a deeply distressing or disturbing event that overwhelms an individual’s ability to cope, causes feelings of helplessness, diminishes their sense of self and their ability to feel the full range of emotions and experiences.” ⠀
🙈 For many years I didn’t acknowledge I had experienced trauma. I thought what I was feeling, how I was behaving, what I was thinking was just ‘normal’... it was definitely MY normal. ⠀
🔹 I thought it was normal to seriously think about suicide a couple of times a year. ⠀
🔹 I thought it was normal to avoid talking about any parts of my life that had hurt me. ⠀
🔹 I thought it was normal to have HEAPS or ‘friends’ (but no real close friends).⠀
🔹 I thought it was normal to never want to engage in deep conversations.⠀
🔹 I thought it was normal to be jealous of other people .⠀
🔹 I thought it was normal to put other people down (behind their back) to make myself feel better. ⠀
Fuck. 😞 Writing that makes me realise how out of touch with myself (and reality) I was - but also how deeply sad and hurt I was. ⠀
🔸 I didn’t know (or ignored) the signs before I was about to crash, I just kept going at 100% then BAM! ⠀
🔸 I didn’t know how to listen to what my body, soul & mind needed. ⠀
🔸 I didn’t know how to be kind to myself. ⠀
🔸 I didn’t know how to live life as a supportive, encouraging person… everything was a competition. ⠀
🔸 I didn’t know how to love myself. ⠀
I’ve learnt so much about myself and the people closest to me in the past five years, including how to be a better friend, partner and person in general. ⠀
Give me an emoji if you would like me to share some of my lessons… ⠀
AND if there’s anything specific you want me to talk about, let me know 😘
Mike Tyson has a great quote that says “everybody’s got a plan till they get punched in the mouth”. I’ve had a good run the last couple months but over the weekend I got kicked in the fucking dick, hard. The worst part is nothing horrible happened & over the last few months I’ve had some pretty bad things happen like my mom’s health going down hill quickly & having to be admitted to the ICU for a bad infection, she had a seizure & went back in the ICU, at work we had manufacturer audits requiring countless hours of additional work during the busiest time of year, etc. I’ve dealt with, processed, & overcome all of these things in the past few months & I’ve maintained my clarity, purpose, and happiness.
This weekend nothing happened. I just woke up Saturday & wasn’t feeling it; since then things have been off. I got food poisoning Saturday evening & it kicked my ass Sunday/Monday. I’ve been trying to recover physically but the mental side has been tougher. I don’t know why these things happen like this.
That doesn’t matter. What matters is how I react to it. I had a plan & I just got blasted in the fucking face - now it’s up to me to refocus & jump back into the game.
If you’re going through a rough spot, if things aren’t working out, if your energy, motivation, determination, etc is off, if your self talk has gone to shit and took your happiness with it; don’t stop what you were doing. Just keep pressing forward, make positive life choices one at a time, make good eating choices one meal at a time, get your exercise in even if it isn’t your normal routine just keep moving, do things that’ll help you get through this like journal, meditate, read, study things that interest you, etc & before you know it we will both be through this storm.
If you need help or just want to talk to someone going through the same shit you’re going through send me a message. You’re not alone! We are all in this together! Love y’all!