Carefully crafted image of thread fine precision, so well constructed, a thing of beauty no doubt, like a wax carving unmistakable in its likeness to something breathing, heaving and heavy with suffering. The imperfections, oh Perrrfeeecction! It can dance and sing and talk the talk like the real thing. My puppet image. So well cast and set in artificial stone. The lines too clean, the blade-like edges of my doll house, kept in the exact.
Carefully crafted image or worse, not at all, just the gizzards spilling out onto the road, gathering dust and getting thick with dirty grit. See me, see me! Isn't it all so hard. Tap tap and make it better.
This is it
Such a terribly obvious tradegy, let us suffer in a race, yours perfect and empty, mine lazy and full, and let's see who wins.
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🍁✨"It's OK to not be OK all the time"✨🍁 I had initially planned for myself & for my Instagram, that Monday's would be the day where I posted a "motivational Monday" post, with the intent of pepping myself & others up with a discussion about how to ignite creativity & generate productivity.
But, I'm going to be honest, for my inagurual "motivational Monday", today was pretty awful. At first, I was blaming myself for my shoddy attitude. But then I realized, sometimes it’s OK to not be OK.
I think for a lot of us, including myself, our subconcious tells us that to do a good job & to be worthy, we have to be "on" all the time, give all of ourselves, do the most work to help the most people, & to overextend yourself beyond your boundaries to feel accomplished, but that’s not true.
Sometimes, you just don't have the emotional & mental bandwidth to be able to deliver that, & that's OK.
Performing under those kind of conditions, put simply, just burns you out, it makes you numb.
Today, I struggled with a situation that, no matter how hard I tried to make right, only made it worse. And to be honest, I beat myself up over it. I cried, I self-criticized, & I self-deprecated, even though I knew what I did was the right thing to do.
But, because the person didn't react the way I expected, I continued to sling insults at myself saying that I "shouldn't have bothered" or "you did it wrong." Thankfully, my husband made me realize that other people's emotional reactions are not a reflection of me, but a reflection of them, & sometimes things are just out of my control. And that's OK!
Not every Monday is going to be a "motivational Monday," some are going to be "miserable Monday's,” & that's OK!!
But, while I was going through my pathetic excuse for a Monday, I was dreaming of Ireland.
I was wishing I was on the craggy, green coastline listening to the waves, or in a cozy pub enjoying a pint of Guiness, or in this ancient abbey listening to the silent stories within its walls.
Whether you were kicking butt & taking names this Monday, or you were just struggling to stay afloat, I hope your Monday turned out to be motivational in it’s own way