I haven't packed yet and I leave in 5 days... whoops 🤷♀️🤷♀️🤷♀️ (it's been a minute since I've posted! but I've been so busy with everything, including getting ready for college :( but don't worry! I have more stuff on the way so get excited 💫)
⚠️Warning: the following contains strong language⚠️
Recovery is fucking hard some days y’all. (Specially when a full moon is coming in hot) Some says you get through not even remembering you’re in recovery, and other days it’s all you think about. They say removing the substance (drugs, alcohol, etc) is the easy part, the hard part is learning to feel again.
I won’t lie to ya, for the last week or so I’ve had thoughts and feelings come creeping in about drinking again. I feel stuck, I’m questioning what’s next, what do I do now I started thinking of years down the road and was overwhelmed with the thoughts.
“Just one won’t hurt.”
“I can handle it now.”
“Could I make it to 5 years”
“Could I even make it to two years without a drink”
“What if I slip”
“What am I even doing with my life”
“Is this worth it”
“Am I worth it”
I come home to find a sweet gift waiting for me. A sweet friend who I’ve connected with via Young Living sent me this badass recovery warrior bracelet. What divine timing to receive this today In the moment I read it, 𝐵𝒜𝒟𝒜𝒮𝒮 𝑅𝐸𝒞𝒪𝒱𝐸𝑅𝒴 𝒲𝒜𝑅𝑅𝐼𝒪𝑅, I started crying. I was instantly reminded exactly who I am. I was reminded that I am indeed worth it. I am worth the fight! I am a badass recovery warrior! I’m 423 days sober- 3 days shy of 14 months. 𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐭’𝐬 𝐟𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐚𝐦𝐚𝐳𝐢𝐧𝐠. So instead of letting that inner critic move in with its lies and derail me, I choose to continue to fight back. To be stronger than my addiction. I know damn well if I had one, it wouldn’t stop there. Taking a look at my track record shows me that, but you know what else it shows me That I can make it without a drink! That I can get through the hard days and the hard emotions without numbing myself. That I can do the hard shit and face my biggest challenges.
So this is my reminder to you, if you’re struggling to get thru the day, if you’re contemplating recovery, 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐂𝐀𝐍 𝐃𝐎 𝐈𝐓. And if you need someone along the way, I’m here to be your biggest cheerleader.
Now, excuse me as I lather myself in oils, crystals & release all I am feeling. Tomorrow is a new day, make it a beautiful one. ✨💗🙏🏼
couldn’t decide which one to post so i decided to post both! i just noticed my last two posts have been of a blue spread 🤔🤔 guess i have a thing for the color blue 😂😂 anyway, i know it’s a bit late to post abt this but here’s the spread i did for mark’s birthday!! 😄💕 who’s your guys’ bias in nct 127 mine’s johnny 😁✨
Long term goals.
A focus in our daily routine journal!
We focus on establishing our longer term goals in 3 different aspects of our life;
Professional, personal & relationship goals.
Through consistency & direction you will be amazed at what you can achieve.
Just like the analogy we use about a captain and a boat, he needs a destination in mind in order to get where he needs to go or he will be sailing around aimlessly.
Pick your destinations & start sailing!