love and accept yourself, love and accept others ~ happy Sunday 💛
I honestly don’t know what to share these days, as I continue this journey of self love. Grief comes in waves, a little smaller each time, until you are able to withstand its weight🌊 Entering this spring and Aries season I want to really explore my sense of self (spring always makes me feel so alive!), and learn to breathe love and light into even the darkest and most difficult parts of my being. In seeing and accepting those parts of me without judgment, I am able to let those things go. I am able to grow and evolve. I am able to look at other humans with love and without judgment at their dark and difficult parts. We all so desperately want to be seen. To be understood without condemnation. So while you scroll through so many seemingly “perfect” Instagram pics, know that others are experiencing the less-than-pretty feelings, too. We don’t highlight our suffering on social media for all to see. We all have pain. Let us choose joy anyway, as we follow the things that light us up and don’t bemoan the questions when the answers are available within. Thankful a million times over for my tiny human experience that cracks me wide open to shine even brighter than before. We all have had dark days, but don’t let them turn your light off. Choose love, choose acceptance, choose to let go, and choose joy ☀️
One day soon you will bless the thing that broke you down and cracked you open because the world needs you open. You are going somewhere sacred. ~Rachel Campbell ✨
One of the biggest things I’ve been working through is using my voice to tell my story - to provide insight, relatability and guidance to anyone wanting to listen. To use my experiences to HELP others facing similar things. To be a source of comfort and love for others at a time when it’s nearly impossible to see any sort of light amidst the engulfing darkness.
I can’t change what’s happened to me thus far in life.
I can’t change the fact that I watched my mom slowly wither away as the cancer took over her mind, body and spirit.
I can’t remove from memory the last time I saw her - 20 years young, lying with her in bed as tears rushed down her face, telling me she wanted to study my face because she was afraid she’d forget it once she was gone. Telling me as she struggled to catch her breath that she was ready to die, ready to stop fighting and feeling so miserable, wishing desperately it didn’t also mean she’d have to leave us.
I can’t take away the loneliness and pain I felt as I watched peers, teammates and friends look at me with such helpless and pitying eyes after she died, unsure of how to act or what to say to me.
I can’t change how it affected everyone in my family, specifically my brother.
I can’t change how he chose to deal with his own loss, grief, sadness and pain.
I can’t remove from memory how heartbreaking it was for me to watch firsthand that slowly but surely, I was losing my brother, too. I will never forget the call I received the morning my dad told me my brother had killed himself.
I will never forget the pain I’ve endured, the grief that’s tested my own will to live, and the choices I’ve had to face to determine how I’d move forward.
My life has been full of heartache and pain, trauma and loss. A kind of suffering I’d never ever wish on anyone, but I am so, so proud of myself for the help I chose to seek and discover to get through it all in a healthy and effective way. I am so proud of the work I did to uncover and release the negative emotion I stored and buried deep down within my body.
If I can help one person get through a traumatic and painful time in their life, my life is a success. All I want to do is HELP, & so I will 💜
Confession 🙏🏻 I’m not always drawn to my cards. Sometimes I can go weeks without picking up my deck for personal energy work or study.
A full time job and commuting 15 hours a week drains my energy, and sometimes I just want to veg out.
But hanging out with my tarot tribe and receiving feedback from followers that my coffee contemplations and posts are something to which they look forward, it always brings me back to my practice. Happy Sunday everyone!
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