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 #ja u bozanstvenoj Veneciji pre potapanja #carobna, jedinstvena, posebna Venecija i Italija #zelim svim srcem da potapanje i nevreme prestane i da opet na prolece uzivam sa svojima u carobnosti ovog unikatnog grada #neda volim nego obozavam Italiju #izabrala sam za Veneciju casual, turisticki stil👖💎💍💄🧥🧤🔜🇮🇹💯💖❤️📚🎓

2019-11-17 07:36   21 0

 

#ja u bozanstvenoj Veneciji pre potapanja #carobna, jedinstvena, posebna Venecija i Italija #zelim svim srcem da potapanje i nevreme prestane i da opet na prolece uzivam sa svojima u carobnosti ovog unikatnog grada #neda volim nego obozavam Italiju #izabrala sam za Veneciju casual, turisticki stil👖💎💍💄🧥🧤🔜🇮🇹💯💖❤️📚🎓

Binge Eating Disorder sucks for a lot of reasons, but while I was in the thick of it, I truly thought that the worst part was the weight gain. I remember having so much anger towards my body, and 𝗜 𝘁𝗿𝘂𝗹𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗺𝘆 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗯𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗶𝗻 𝗮 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆. 
After gaining a lot of weight, and then losing that weight, and then gaining that weight again, I finally see that losing weight wasn't the solution. Instead, I needed to focus on the inside. Focusing on losing weight in recovery wasn't allowing me a full recovery, my ultimate goal.

So this is for all you warriors out there who want to live a fully recovered life—we've got this. And you don’t need to lose the weight to reach recovery ❤️
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 #edrecovery #edrecover #edrecovered #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorders #edawareness #edfam #bingeeating #bingeeatingrecovery #bingeeatingdisoder #bingeeatingsupport #bingeeatingdisorder #eatingdisorder #ed #edfamily #prorecovery #edwarrior #anorexianervosa #edfree #recoveryispossible #edfighter #anorexiarecovery #beatanorexia #recoverywin #neda #eatingdisorder #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit

2019-11-17 04:38   13 1

 

Binge Eating Disorder sucks for a lot of reasons, but while I was in the thick of it, I truly thought that the worst part was the weight gain. I remember having so much anger towards my body, and 𝗜 𝘁𝗿𝘂𝗹𝘆 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵𝘁 𝗺𝘆 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲 𝘄𝗼𝘂𝗹𝗱 𝗯𝗲 𝗯𝗲𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗶𝗻 𝗮 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗻𝗲𝗿 𝗯𝗼𝗱𝘆. After gaining a lot of weight, and then losing that weight, and then gaining that weight again, I finally see that losing weight wasn't the solution. Instead, I needed to focus on the inside. Focusing on losing weight in recovery wasn't allowing me a full recovery, my ultimate goal. So this is for all you warriors out there who want to live a fully recovered life—we've got this. And you don’t need to lose the weight to reach recovery ❤️ . . . #edrecovery #edrecover #edrecovered #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorders #edawareness #edfam #bingeeating #bingeeatingrecovery #bingeeatingdisoder #bingeeatingsupport #bingeeatingdisorder #eatingdisorder #ed #edfamily #prorecovery #edwarrior #anorexianervosa #edfree #recoveryispossible #edfighter #anorexiarecovery #beatanorexia #recoverywin #neda #eatingdisorder #recoverywarrior #recoveryisworthit

Great way to end the year! NEDA year end awards banquet lots of good friends and lots of laughs🤣🤣 AG Dressage you are the best could have do e it without you #neda #dressage

2019-11-17 04:20   18 0

 

Great way to end the year! NEDA year end awards banquet lots of good friends and lots of laughs🤣🤣 AG Dressage you are the best could have do e it without you #neda #dressage

A dear friend I made while inpatient sent me an awesome new affirmation card set. This is the first card I randomly pulled. The Universe is cheering me on. #edwarrior #anorexiarecovery #neda

2019-11-17 03:41   14 2

 

A dear friend I made while inpatient sent me an awesome new affirmation card set. This is the first card I randomly pulled. The Universe is cheering me on. #edwarrior #anorexiarecovery #neda

Another great @nedadressage awards! Being my second time here I could not be prouder to bring home fourth place in first level with a 68, and reserve champion for the first level freestyle! Also finally got an awards cooler😂 Even better to spend this time with my favorite people! Can’t wait until next season!
 #dressage #dressageawards #neda #yearendawards #lilyofchincoteague

2019-11-17 03:25   42 4

 

Another great @nedadressage awards! Being my second time here I could not be prouder to bring home fourth place in first level with a 68, and reserve champion for the first level freestyle! Also finally got an awards cooler😂 Even better to spend this time with my favorite people! Can’t wait until next season! #dressage #dressageawards #neda #yearendawards #lilyofchincoteague

I used to think that I'd be happy if I had a smaller body and met that goal weight.
But the smaller my body got, the smaller my life got.
And I was miserable. Sick all of the time, injury after injury, my thoughts completely consumed by food and excercise.
My body has changed a lot the last few years through recovering and pregnancy with my daughter.
I have no idea what I weigh, but I do know that whatever that number is, I'm pretty damn happy here.
And spontaneous icecream dates are the BEST. 🍦❤

2019-11-17 03:24   22 1

 

I used to think that I'd be happy if I had a smaller body and met that goal weight. But the smaller my body got, the smaller my life got. And I was miserable. Sick all of the time, injury after injury, my thoughts completely consumed by food and excercise. My body has changed a lot the last few years through recovering and pregnancy with my daughter. I have no idea what I weigh, but I do know that whatever that number is, I'm pretty damn happy here. And spontaneous icecream dates are the BEST. 🍦❤

I saw my GP today, and she’s not as convinced that the problem is an ulcer. She referring me for an upper endoscopy. It’s very frustrating, but today I’m grateful for providers who listen and care about me. She can’t make the pain go away instantaneously, but she can be show some compassion and reassure me she will get it figured out. In the meantime, I’m trying not to blame myself for this.

2019-11-17 03:11   14 3

 

I saw my GP today, and she’s not as convinced that the problem is an ulcer. She referring me for an upper endoscopy. It’s very frustrating, but today I’m grateful for providers who listen and care about me. She can’t make the pain go away instantaneously, but she can be show some compassion and reassure me she will get it figured out. In the meantime, I’m trying not to blame myself for this.

A super throwback to remind you that your weight does not determine your worth and you should probably destroy your scale. Calories aren’t the enemy, food is not the enemy, your body is not the enemy. .

Your disordered thoughts are the enemy. Diet culture is the enemy. These are the things that we should be fighting. We shouldn’t be fighting to get smaller - we should be fighting for our right to exist at whatever the hell size we happen to be at. You have so much more to offer than being the skinniest one in the room. You are powerful and strong and you are capable of MUCH more than “thin.” .

The moment I smashed my scale was a moment I will never forget. The battle had just begun but I felt like I could conquer the world - I wasn’t afraid of a stupid eating disorder, I was stronger. I went years without weighing myself and guess what 🤷🏻‍♀️ I didn’t die. I didn’t gain a million pounds. I just lived my life. Without a scale I was free from having to fit into my distorted idea of what I should weigh and allowed my body to find the weight it wanted to be at.
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Your weight could not matter less in comparison to all that you have to offer the world. Don’t allow society or your mind to convince you that the best you can be is skinny.

2019-11-17 02:59   121 9

 

A super throwback to remind you that your weight does not determine your worth and you should probably destroy your scale. Calories aren’t the enemy, food is not the enemy, your body is not the enemy. . Your disordered thoughts are the enemy. Diet culture is the enemy. These are the things that we should be fighting. We shouldn’t be fighting to get smaller - we should be fighting for our right to exist at whatever the hell size we happen to be at. You have so much more to offer than being the skinniest one in the room. You are powerful and strong and you are capable of MUCH more than “thin.” . The moment I smashed my scale was a moment I will never forget. The battle had just begun but I felt like I could conquer the world - I wasn’t afraid of a stupid eating disorder, I was stronger. I went years without weighing myself and guess what 🤷🏻‍♀️ I didn’t die. I didn’t gain a million pounds. I just lived my life. Without a scale I was free from having to fit into my distorted idea of what I should weigh and allowed my body to find the weight it wanted to be at. . Your weight could not matter less in comparison to all that you have to offer the world. Don’t allow society or your mind to convince you that the best you can be is skinny.

It was such an honor to be asked to lead a yoga session before today’s #NEDAwalk2019 💚 And it meant the world to me to walk side by side with someone that holds a special place in my heart during my own eating disorder recovery journey 💚 Love you @april_r_golden - even tho my sign says ‘I’m don’t know her’ 🤣😆 #edrecoverywarrior #onedayatatime #neda #endthestigma

2019-11-17 01:05   27 2

 

It was such an honor to be asked to lead a yoga session before today’s #NEDAwalk2019 💚 And it meant the world to me to walk side by side with someone that holds a special place in my heart during my own eating disorder recovery journey 💚 Love you @april_r_golden - even tho my sign says ‘I’m don’t know her’ 🤣😆 #edrecoverywarrior #onedayatatime #neda #endthestigma

~ways to challenge fear foods~
Sometimes we need a way to motivate ourselves to challenge fear foods. Similar to how creative school supplies can make going back more enjoyable, having cool ways to challenge fear foods can make it more fun! Written below are some ideas I came up with on how to challenge yourself which will hopefully motivate you to try some!
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~ Fear food jar!!! Cut some slips of paper and write your fear foods on them. Fold the pieces and put them in the container, and whenever you feel like it, pull out a slip and eat that item!
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~Challenge yourself to make a food decision in 15 seconds, so you don't overthink it. Preferably a fear food!
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~Random menu item challenge! Close your eyes and glide your finger across the menu. Whatever it lands on, you order!
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~This one is for the baker: look up a YouTube tutorial on how to make fortune cookies (I've made them before!) In some of them, make the fortune "fear food challenge". Whenever you open one, you must eat a fear food!
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 #edrecovery #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorderecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexianervosia #anorexia #edwarrior #edfighter #edrecoveryarmy #edrecoverywarrior #recoverywin #fearfoods #fearfoodchallenge #fightinged #fightingana #overcominged #edsucks #anasucks #neda #eatingdisorderawareness #selflove #loveyourself

2019-11-17 00:36   17 0

 

~ways to challenge fear foods~ Sometimes we need a way to motivate ourselves to challenge fear foods. Similar to how creative school supplies can make going back more enjoyable, having cool ways to challenge fear foods can make it more fun! Written below are some ideas I came up with on how to challenge yourself which will hopefully motivate you to try some! - ~ Fear food jar!!! Cut some slips of paper and write your fear foods on them. Fold the pieces and put them in the container, and whenever you feel like it, pull out a slip and eat that item! - ~Challenge yourself to make a food decision in 15 seconds, so you don't overthink it. Preferably a fear food! - ~Random menu item challenge! Close your eyes and glide your finger across the menu. Whatever it lands on, you order! - ~This one is for the baker: look up a YouTube tutorial on how to make fortune cookies (I've made them before!) In some of them, make the fortune "fear food challenge". Whenever you open one, you must eat a fear food! - - - #edrecovery #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorderecovery #anorexiarecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexianervosia #anorexia #edwarrior #edfighter #edrecoveryarmy #edrecoverywarrior #recoverywin #fearfoods #fearfoodchallenge #fightinged #fightingana #overcominged #edsucks #anasucks #neda #eatingdisorderawareness #selflove #loveyourself

Yesterday, at a Chinese/Japanese Department event at my school, there were some snax. Last year I took one of the snacks, not intending to eat it, but after hella research and realizing it was basically a rice cake, I allowed myself to ~make room~ for it in my day. It was so good, though, that I proceeded to special order a pack of twelve off of Amazon and then binged on them when they arrived. 
Yesterday, I grabbed three of the snacks rather than just one.. with the intention of ACTUALLY eating them.. what a concept. Immediately after the event I ate one and put the other two in my pocket. The second one I tried later that night, didn’t like it and gave it to my friend. The third one- the one that I was so completely obsessed with last year?? I FORGOT ABOUT HER. I legitimately left her in my pocket and am realizing right now that I don’t even know where she is. That-my friends- is crazy to me. 
I guess this was just a little anecdote to show y’all who currently can think of nothing but food that it WILL get better. It will it will it will. But it won’t just happen.. you’ve gotta weight restore and give into extreme hunger and mental hunger and do all the super duper hard shit. Just because it’ll be hard doesn’t mean you can’t do it. YOU ARE CAPABLE OF DOING HARD THINGS.

 #Foodie_Features #Foodography
 #fuckdietculture #dietculturesucks #bodypositive #bodypositivity #bodyneutrality #celluLIT #loveyourself #edrecovery #neda #edawareness #anorexiawarrior #recoveryispossible #fuckketo #carbsarelife #carbs #foodisfuel #weightrestored #weightrestoration #weightgainiscool #nourishtoflourish #bethebiggerbully #eatittobeatit #challengerepeat

2019-11-17 00:30   254 11

 

Yesterday, at a Chinese/Japanese Department event at my school, there were some snax. Last year I took one of the snacks, not intending to eat it, but after hella research and realizing it was basically a rice cake, I allowed myself to ~make room~ for it in my day. It was so good, though, that I proceeded to special order a pack of twelve off of Amazon and then binged on them when they arrived. Yesterday, I grabbed three of the snacks rather than just one.. with the intention of ACTUALLY eating them.. what a concept. Immediately after the event I ate one and put the other two in my pocket. The second one I tried later that night, didn’t like it and gave it to my friend. The third one- the one that I was so completely obsessed with last year I FORGOT ABOUT HER. I legitimately left her in my pocket and am realizing right now that I don’t even know where she is. That-my friends- is crazy to me. I guess this was just a little anecdote to show y’all who currently can think of nothing but food that it WILL get better. It will it will it will. But it won’t just happen.. you’ve gotta weight restore and give into extreme hunger and mental hunger and do all the super duper hard shit. Just because it’ll be hard doesn’t mean you can’t do it. YOU ARE CAPABLE OF DOING HARD THINGS. #Foodie_Features #Foodography #fuckdietculture #dietculturesucks #bodypositive #bodypositivity #bodyneutrality #celluLIT #loveyourself #edrecovery #neda #edawareness #anorexiawarrior #recoveryispossible #fuckketo #carbsarelife #carbs #foodisfuel #weightrestored #weightrestoration #weightgainiscool #nourishtoflourish #bethebiggerbully #eatittobeatit #challengerepeat

For the last several months, I’ve been wearing my NEDA symbol necklace. I never take it off so I never forget what I’m fighting for every day: recovery. A new life. A FULL life. Tonight at work, something told me to make my necklace visible to the customer I was ringing out. She looked at me and told me she liked my necklace. She knew what it was for. I could see the pain behind her eyes, because I imagine, she too, is fighting an eating disorder. I wear my necklace everywhere, not only as a symbol of my own recovery, but to show others that they can talk about it. “I have an eating disorder” is not a dirty phrase, but society treats it like it is. I’m not ashamed of the struggle that chose me, I don’t have to be. I didn’t ask for this. But I’m asking for recovery. I’m asking for a second chance at life. I’m working towards it, even in my weakest moments. I hope this post is just a reminder to you that you don’t need to be ashamed of your ED — it’s okay to talk about. It’s not a dirty word. It’s okay. You’re okay. 🧡 #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #neda

2019-11-16 23:58   34 0

 

For the last several months, I’ve been wearing my NEDA symbol necklace. I never take it off so I never forget what I’m fighting for every day: recovery. A new life. A FULL life. Tonight at work, something told me to make my necklace visible to the customer I was ringing out. She looked at me and told me she liked my necklace. She knew what it was for. I could see the pain behind her eyes, because I imagine, she too, is fighting an eating disorder. I wear my necklace everywhere, not only as a symbol of my own recovery, but to show others that they can talk about it. “I have an eating disorder” is not a dirty phrase, but society treats it like it is. I’m not ashamed of the struggle that chose me, I don’t have to be. I didn’t ask for this. But I’m asking for recovery. I’m asking for a second chance at life. I’m working towards it, even in my weakest moments. I hope this post is just a reminder to you that you don’t need to be ashamed of your ED — it’s okay to talk about. It’s not a dirty word. It’s okay. You’re okay. 🧡 #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #neda

tomato, courgette & split pea soup with rye toast and an oat milk latte.. I’m in heaven 😍
if any of you need this reminder I’m going to say it again, although a simple statement: recovery is worth it. this wouldn’t be possible for me without recovery. 
eating around people? no. drinking coffee and eating at the same time? no. 
eating bread with my soup? no. enjoying it? NO. 
having the energy to hike through the scottish highlands? nah.
only through letting go of my eating disorder, opposite actions, learning to trust my body and explore new foods and face fears is this possible and it’s SO worth it. don’t give up, you are stronger than you know ❤️

2019-11-16 22:16   40 2

 

tomato, courgette & split pea soup with rye toast and an oat milk latte.. I’m in heaven 😍 if any of you need this reminder I’m going to say it again, although a simple statement: recovery is worth it. this wouldn’t be possible for me without recovery. eating around people no. drinking coffee and eating at the same time no. eating bread with my soup no. enjoying it NO. having the energy to hike through the scottish highlands nah. only through letting go of my eating disorder, opposite actions, learning to trust my body and explore new foods and face fears is this possible and it’s SO worth it. don’t give up, you are stronger than you know ❤️

Este es el primer albergue de peregrinos del Camino Inglés de Santiago, en Neda, el cual tiene unas vistas estupendas de la ribera del rio Xubia.
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 #Neda #alberguedeperegrinos #albergue #CamiñoIngles #OCamiño #Santiago #Caminodesantiago #Compostela #Nature #naturemoments #Landscape #Sky #Sun #Green #Paisaxe #travelgram #travelphotography #travellifestyle #travelblogger #Trips #Viajero #viajes #Viaje #galiciaturismo #Galicia #Somosgalegos #igersspain #igersgalicia #Galiza

2019-11-16 22:13   48 0

 

Este es el primer albergue de peregrinos del Camino Inglés de Santiago, en Neda, el cual tiene unas vistas estupendas de la ribera del rio Xubia. . . . . . . . . . . #Neda #alberguedeperegrinos #albergue #CamiñoIngles #OCamiño #Santiago #Caminodesantiago #Compostela #Nature #naturemoments #Landscape #Sky #Sun #Green #Paisaxe #travelgram #travelphotography #travellifestyle #travelblogger #Trips #Viajero #viajes #Viaje #galiciaturismo #Galicia #Somosgalegos #igersspain #igersgalicia #Galiza

so a lil update guys: I’M IN THE SCOTTISH HIGHLANDS 🍂🍂🍂
my friends and I decided to do a trip together and we got here yesterday!
it’s literally a dream come true, so surreal and beautiful and full of adventures. I’m so thankful to be here. ALSO we found the cutest little vegan cafe imma post a picture of our lovely food🖤🖤🖤

2019-11-16 22:11   40 6

 

so a lil update guys: I’M IN THE SCOTTISH HIGHLANDS 🍂🍂🍂 my friends and I decided to do a trip together and we got here yesterday! it’s literally a dream come true, so surreal and beautiful and full of adventures. I’m so thankful to be here. ALSO we found the cutest little vegan cafe imma post a picture of our lovely food🖤🖤🖤

✨lunch // guysss this is the closest thing i’ve had to lunch in around 2 months, and even though i’m freaking out i’m still proud xx 
i also added some spiced walnuts and pecan pieces afterwards, to go with my pumpkin ‘latte’ (the espresso took up most of the cup and there was 1 cm of room for milk but it’s okay lmao). can i just say how GOOD quince is, esp when microwaved with some cinnamon 😉😉 🍁🍂i took some shots of my dog on the walk this morning as well :)) #eatingdisorder #food #recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #ed #edrecovery #ana #anorexia #heal #foodrecovery #anorexiarecovery #nourishtoflourish #energy #iamenough #depression #anxiety #treatment #recoverywins #neda #therapy #eatingdisordersupport #fighter #anafighter #edfighter #anorexiasupport ❤️✨

2019-11-16 21:19   15 1

 

✨lunch // guysss this is the closest thing i’ve had to lunch in around 2 months, and even though i’m freaking out i’m still proud xx i also added some spiced walnuts and pecan pieces afterwards, to go with my pumpkin ‘latte’ (the espresso took up most of the cup and there was 1 cm of room for milk but it’s okay lmao). can i just say how GOOD quince is, esp when microwaved with some cinnamon 😉😉 🍁🍂i took some shots of my dog on the walk this morning as well :)) #eatingdisorder #food #recovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #ed #edrecovery #ana #anorexia #heal #foodrecovery #anorexiarecovery #nourishtoflourish #energy #iamenough #depression #anxiety #treatment #recoverywins #neda #therapy #eatingdisordersupport #fighter #anafighter #edfighter #anorexiasupport ❤️✨

@maddiebaird32 two down one to go! DM me for specific color combos or comment on the picture if you love it the way it is! #friendshipbracelets #eatingdisorderawareness #eatingdisorderecovery #neda #nedasymbol #bracelet #homemade #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #bingeeatingrecovery #copingskills #smallbusiness #recovery #edawareness #eatingdisordersupport #eatingdisorders #stringbracelet #edwarriors #mentalhealthawareness #diy #prorecovery #pnw #menwitheatingdisorders #hope #loveyourbody #bodyacceptance #pride
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2019-11-16 20:57   17 1

 
| 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘸 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳, 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘶𝘱 |⁣
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 #todayi want to show you how easy it is to push past an injury. To push past pain but to remember that it is there to begin with. ⁣
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Yesterday I deadlifted 200lbs, this is more than I have ever done. Today I squated weight that I was was doing pre-injury. With better form, more control and NO PAIN. ⁣
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Today I showed up for myself and no one else. ⁣
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There was a time where I didn’t show up for myself and wow I was missing out. ⁣
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There was this part of my life where the only thing that mattered was how others thought of me. To that I say “think what you want, I know who I am and don’t need you to tell me other wise” ⁣
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𝐁𝐞 𝐘𝐨𝐮⁣
𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐘𝐨𝐮 ⁣
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I built my business on the intentions of showing other men and woman how to believe in themselves and how if you stop letting the excuses get in the way you CAN DO ANYTHING you set your mind to! ⁣
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I am so proud of my challenge girls for showing up for themselves and making strides to their own goals! ⁣
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1) 95lb Squat ⁣
2) 135 lbs Squat ⁣💥 pre injury
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Wearing @ptulaactive stealth collection (small) *still available* ⁣
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 #fitnessgirl #fitnessmotivation #liveyourdream #sororityalum #rhodyalum #fitness #program #model #todayi #move #showup #noexcusesfitt #squat #blogger #newyork #newengland #holidays #ptulaactive #ptulafamily #ptulaninjas #neda #love

2019-11-16 20:14   42 4

 

| 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘳𝘰𝘸 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘦𝘳, 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘧𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘶𝘱 |⁣ ⁣ #todayi want to show you how easy it is to push past an injury. To push past pain but to remember that it is there to begin with. ⁣ ⁣ Yesterday I deadlifted 200lbs, this is more than I have ever done. Today I squated weight that I was was doing pre-injury. With better form, more control and NO PAIN. ⁣ ⁣ Today I showed up for myself and no one else. ⁣ ⁣ There was a time where I didn’t show up for myself and wow I was missing out. ⁣ ⁣ There was this part of my life where the only thing that mattered was how others thought of me. To that I say “think what you want, I know who I am and don’t need you to tell me other wise” ⁣ ⁣ 𝐁𝐞 𝐘𝐨𝐮⁣ 𝐅𝐨𝐫 𝐘𝐨𝐮 ⁣ ⁣ I built my business on the intentions of showing other men and woman how to believe in themselves and how if you stop letting the excuses get in the way you CAN DO ANYTHING you set your mind to! ⁣ ⁣ I am so proud of my challenge girls for showing up for themselves and making strides to their own goals! ⁣ ⁣ 1) 95lb Squat ⁣ 2) 135 lbs Squat ⁣💥 pre injury ⁣ ⁣ Wearing @ptulaactive stealth collection (small) *still available* ⁣ ⁣ ⁣📸 @jocelyn_bk ⁣ #fitnessgirl #fitnessmotivation #liveyourdream #sororityalum #rhodyalum #fitness #program #model #todayi #move #showup #noexcusesfitt #squat #blogger #newyork #newengland #holidays #ptulaactive #ptulafamily #ptulaninjas #neda #love

Body dysmorphia has been extremely bad lately.... but I’m continuing to push through and haven’t given into behaviors (even though the urges have been insanely high)... my inner strength and will for recovery is really being tested and I’m proud that I’ve been able to stick it out even when I’ve wanted to through in the towel.... that doesn’t take away how hArd this shit is though, and realistically I know recovery is never rainbows and butterflies, but I always hate this part.... where I can’t numb out my emotions any more and all the feelings pour out of me... the part where I can’t disconnect from my body anymore and feel trapped and unsafe in it instead ... Even though this is horrifically hard, it is still the best decision and will be worth it in the end!!! 💕. .
And I’m so grateful for my dietitian helping me through a horrible body dysmorphia attack yesterday through texting... I love her so much and when I found out the deeper meaning of it I felt so much better... I always have to remind myself that it’s really never about the food or the body, it’s something deeper, but I just have to figure out in the moment what the meaning is. .
(Also I made it 40 days behavior free!)
 #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #bulimiarecovery #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #nourishtoflourish #nourishnotpunish #ptsdrecovery #traumarecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #neda #fuckdietculture #intuitiveeating #allfoodsfit #balancedeating #balancednotclean #embraceyoursoulself #recoveryisworthit #bodydysmorphia #oppositeaction #selfcompassion #trusttheprocess

2019-11-16 19:20   40 2

 

Body dysmorphia has been extremely bad lately.... but I’m continuing to push through and haven’t given into behaviors (even though the urges have been insanely high)... my inner strength and will for recovery is really being tested and I’m proud that I’ve been able to stick it out even when I’ve wanted to through in the towel.... that doesn’t take away how hArd this shit is though, and realistically I know recovery is never rainbows and butterflies, but I always hate this part.... where I can’t numb out my emotions any more and all the feelings pour out of me... the part where I can’t disconnect from my body anymore and feel trapped and unsafe in it instead ... Even though this is horrifically hard, it is still the best decision and will be worth it in the end!!! 💕. . And I’m so grateful for my dietitian helping me through a horrible body dysmorphia attack yesterday through texting... I love her so much and when I found out the deeper meaning of it I felt so much better... I always have to remind myself that it’s really never about the food or the body, it’s something deeper, but I just have to figure out in the moment what the meaning is. . (Also I made it 40 days behavior free!) #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #bulimiarecovery #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #nourishtoflourish #nourishnotpunish #ptsdrecovery #traumarecovery #edwarrior #edfighter #edsoldier #neda #fuckdietculture #intuitiveeating #allfoodsfit #balancedeating #balancednotclean #embraceyoursoulself #recoveryisworthit #bodydysmorphia #oppositeaction #selfcompassion #trusttheprocess

My favourite place in this forest is right here on top of this hill😍 The forest is all covered in gorgeous autumn colours! 
This week I danced for almost 6 hours, did some skating (and fell for the first time😂) and had a 2.5hour ride (was supposed to be a bit shorter but thank to my beautiful sense of direction it got a little longer) this afternoon. My muscles are not so happy anymore so it's time to do some relaxatation now😎

 #horse #horses #autumn #fall #ballet #balletdancer #operasinger #bontpaard #buitenrijden #enjoytheride #pony #vegan #relaxing #neda #recovery #nailedit #sports #healthy #forest #richtingsgevoel #verdwaald #lost #winter #buddy #adultballerina #adultballerinagang #adultballet #pizza #joepie

2019-11-16 19:11   34 1

 

My favourite place in this forest is right here on top of this hill😍 The forest is all covered in gorgeous autumn colours! This week I danced for almost 6 hours, did some skating (and fell for the first time😂) and had a 2.5hour ride (was supposed to be a bit shorter but thank to my beautiful sense of direction it got a little longer) this afternoon. My muscles are not so happy anymore so it's time to do some relaxatation now😎 #horse #horses #autumn #fall #ballet #balletdancer #operasinger #bontpaard #buitenrijden #enjoytheride #pony #vegan #relaxing #neda #recovery #nailedit #sports #healthy #forest #richtingsgevoel #verdwaald #lost #winter #buddy #adultballerina #adultballerinagang #adultballet #pizza #joepie