Today is hard. Hell, the last few weeks have been hard. Depression is here, bringing along it’s stupid friends; anxiety, grief and racing thoughts. I feel like a burden. A nuisance. In the way. I’ve been in so much pain, every day, that it’s wearing me down.
I know I’m strong. I know I’m gonna get through this. But can we please talk about #chronicpain and #depression Because I don’t think it’s talked about nearly enough.
My friends, imagine stubbing your toe every hour on the hour for the rest of your life. (That’s a weak example but still, humor me). Now imagine every time you bang that toe or take a step and you wince, someone pops up and tells you “People have it worse than you!” or “Think positive!”. The first few times, maybe it’s helpful. Maybe.
But then...but then it sinks in. Holy crap, this person is right. People do have it worse, I am too negative. What’s wrong with me How am I not grateful it’s not worse I could stub three toes a day instead of one and I’m complaining I don’t have a right to complain. I must be a wimp. I must be weak. Faking the severity.
You start faking it, putting on the brave face because you don’t want to seem like your complaining. You don’t want your family to only see you suffering. You bury that pain, you grit your teeth and you bury it so deep. You bury all the sadness that comes with it. Sadness for what could have been. Sadness for what never will be. You bury it and bury it, every hour dumping more and more into yourself.
Until one day/one hour, you stub that toe and it hurts, like it has a million times before, and you just explode. The pain you’ve hidden, the sadness you’ve masked breaks that dam you’ve been building and it consumes you. A million emotions released at once, pulling you up and down and sideways until you’re unsure where you are or who you are. The worst thoughts creep in. The ones you can’t even bare to say out loud because they’re too sinister, too dark.
Thats a flare. That’s where I am. That’s my truth. #depression #pain #anxiety #endometriosis #chronicillness #spoonie #rant #mytruth #flare #personalstory #faith #overwhelmed #broken
I’ve taken a bit of a break from social media, deleting Facebook and Twitter entirely from my phone and only having my blog and photography account logged into Instagram. •
I’ve needed to recalibrate. To focus my brain on what I decide is most important to me without any distractions and comparisons to everyone inside my phone. (More on that in my next blog)
It has allowed me to use my time to be as productive as I can, spending more time in the library and at my desk. But also allowing me to spend more time with my thoughts, and taking time for myself. Both of these things have meant that I have been able to focus all my attention on my latest project and trying to decipher the meaning behind it.
#chronicpainwarrior #pelvicpain #manythanks #disability #disabilityawareness #chronicpain #pelvicpain #nervepain #pain #student #degree #positivity #photography #feminity #productivity
DID YOU KNOW... The gut-brain connection is no joke; it can link anxiety to stomach problems and vice versa.
Have you ever had a "gut-wrenching" experience Do certain situations make you "feel nauseous" Have you ever felt "butterflies" in your stomach We use these expressions for a reason.
The gastrointestinal tract is sensitive to emotion. Anger, anxiety, sadness, elation — all of these feelings (and others) can trigger symptoms in the gut.
The brain has a direct effect on the stomach and intestines. For example, the very thought of eating can release the stomach's juices before food gets there. This connection goes both ways.
A troubled intestine can send signals to the brain, just as a troubled brain can send signals to the gut.
Therefore, a person's stomach or intestinal distress can be the cause or the product of anxiety, stress, or depression. That's because the brain and the gastrointestinal (GI) system are intimately connected.
This is especially true in cases where a person experiences gastrointestinal upset with no obvious physical cause. For such functional GI disorders, it is difficult to try to heal a distressed gut without considering the role of stress and emotion.
Source: Anthony L. Komaroff
Editor in Chief, Harvard Health Letter (https://www.health.harvard.edu/diseases-and-conditions/the-gut-brain-connection)
#microbiome #guthealth #plantbased #healthygut #gut #ibs #healthyeating #wholefoods #healthyfood #fermentedfoods #probiotic #prebiotic #lowfodmap #realfood #mentalhealth #depression #sad #anxiety #depressed #mentalhealth #broken #sadness #alone #suicidal #lonely #heartbroken #pain #mentalillness #TotalLifeChangesInlandEmpire
Sorrow prepares you for joy. It violently sweeps everything out of your house, so that new joy can find space to enter. ... Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart, far better things will take their place. Burdens are the foundations of ease and bitter things the forerunners of pleasure. #rumi #sensualalchemy 🎨 @rachday_
El Colegio Americano de Reumatologia (ACR) antiguamente describia puntos gatillo para referirse a lugares especificamente dolorosos del cuerpo que a su vez despiertan dolor en otras zonas.
Desde el 2010 el mismo ACR hace una revision del tema y propone pasar de puntos a zonas o areas. Estas areas estan representadas por cuadrantes del cuerpo.
En la FM debe haber dolor muscular y articular (ver imagen anterior) en los 4 cuadrantes. Si bien, en algunas formas de comienzo de la enfermedad los dolores estan reducidos a menos zonas.
Entender la semiologia de la FM nos permite realizar mejores diagnosticos.
#fibromyalgia, #fibro, #dolor, #acr, #beretta