I’ve battled against it for over three years and today is the day I unfollowed not one but two pregnant people.
As my 35th birthday draws close I take myself back to this time a year ago when I was embarking on our first every #ICSI #ivf round and our only “free” go on the #nhs. I was so full of hope and positivity. I embraced the hormones and the injections and the acne and mood swings. What followed was a punctured ovary, a hospital admission and two failed medicated transfers. I’ve always been one to power on and throughout all of this I never took any time off work apart from following the 4 day stint on the ward which was Doc’s orders. I try to remain strong, see the positives in my life without a child and have concentrated on planning my wedding to my wonderful and so very patient other half but occasionally I have days like this.
I feel ratty. Hard done by. Totally perplexed at how people can try for a child and get pregnant straight away. Today is one of those rare days for me where I need to protect myself and be selfish for once.
The journey goes on.
#ICSI #ivfwarrior #infertility #infertilityawareness #infertilityjourney #ivffail #ivffailure #icsifail #tryingforababy #lonely #heartache #loss #babymaking #ivfsupport #ivfcommunity #ivfsisters #icsijourney #icsicommunity #ivficsi #icsi2019 #failedtransfer #sorrynotsorry
Back from the latest (but not the last-already scheming for next time...) overseas escapade with @clevergirldanni 🗺 our 9 days in Japan were jam-packed and yet I still feel like we just skimmed the surface. Guess we’ll just have to go back ! 🤷🏻♀️ #sorrynotsorry in advance for the Japan pics that will keep coming your way🔹 endless gratitude for our hosts @thab1ggs and @thekirklee for putting up with us, guiding us and truly making this whole trip possible 💜🔹”Kanpai” 🍻to great adventures with old friends, fantastic times with new ones, and all the exciting new experiences this country brought us🔹 and now, what’s next ...🔹
YES, I have abs underneath that crêpe paper! 🧻😂 I just did some IG stories, talking about this loose skin. It isn’t prominent and readily seen if you were to see me at the pool. And when I take my workout selfies and photos, and shit like that … I mean what you SEE is how my body looks. But if I hunch over and pull my skin together, yes .. you will see this too.
THIS is as much a part of me as my abs are. A part that STRETCHED and grew two handsome babes. I don’t try to HIDE it, but I don’t show it as much as I should perhaps
This isn’t a sign of imperfection. It’s just me, and I love me. I love me standing tall, I love me hunched over (although being hunched like that for photos isn’t scroll stopping worthy … or maybe it is!🤔🤣)
At any rate, I just wanna remind you all that yup, I’m pretty jacked and I’m proud of my body and the hard work that I put into it. But I’m also proud of this interesting thing that my skin can do as a result of being prego. I guess overall, I’m just proud of ME. #SorryNotSorry
Love your body. Love YOURSELF. It’s the best thing ever to feel comfortable in your own skin. ❤️
Where are my #selflove warriors at Tell me something that you love about YOU!
I used to think it was just like normal AF to have a gym membership. Like I’ve had one for as long as I can remember. I remember being 16 and getting one with a coworker and spending thousands on a personal trainer. I learned nothing and I actually lost no weight 🙈 nutrition wasn’t included and I would go to work and binge on pancakes and then attempt to “work it off”. It was the beginning of years of yo yo dieting for me and honestly I cringe when I look back. I thought it was so normal to struggle with your weight and to “go to the gym” like I should be proud of the struggle or something Ick 😬🤢 I did that for so long with weird fad diets and “working out” (I honestly had no clue what to do and would walk around doing weird machines until I was sweaty)😹 and I THOUGHT I was okay with that. But I wasn’t. I hated having to wear baggy shirts because I had to hide the “pooch” and I hated never wanting to go clothes shopping. That’s the best part of being a woman! SHOPPING 🙌🏼😍 and I dreaded it! It wasn’t until I met Kandace that I realized It wasn’t normal to be overweight. It wasn’t normal to struggle. And going to the gym and struggling to figure it out was just ONE option that dramatically didn’t work for me. When I reached for help I was scared and kind of lost. But she guided me and loved on me and she HELPED me get those results. And thats what I want for YOU. I want you to get that happiness and healthiness 👋🏼 my next bootcamp starts soon, like MONDAY soon and you still have time to break the yo-yoing and decide to get some results #oryourmoneyback 😍👀 what you waiting for Let’s goooooo 🤸🏼♀️🏃🏼♀️
went to the doctor bc I ate my toy. 9/10 don’t recommend eating ur toy🧸
Before & after #grooming 😂 He is so cross, disappointed and feeling betrayed by his humans 😔 #sorrynotsorry 🙈