Dear Baba jaan, .
You haven't called since 2 days. Yes, I thought of calling you back but I was scared. I was scared to listen to your voice weakening as our tests grow stronger. I was scared of hearing you say, that you have given up. I'm scared to listen to your shaking voice where you just beg for death and nothing else. How do I tell you that the lump in my throat grows larger as I hear you crying and asking for forgiveness from us. Last night I heard you and mom cry and sob for hours, I heard when you said : "I love my kids, If death approaches me, tell them I loved them, let them know that their father did what ever he could to make them happy, ask them to forgive me for not being good enough, tell them that I'm responsible for what ever struggle they are forced to go through at this age. I have always been proud of them and tell them that it is me who have wronged their fate and not you". I have seen you and mom helplessly watching each other and wondering ; "What did we do wrong Why are we punished like this Are we punished or are we being tested "My heart sinks everytime I catch you and mom crying. My body begins to gasp for breath everytime you remind me that 'you love us'. You didn't deserve this baba, I know you didn't. You were the one who made motivated me and would ask me "What makes you think you can't do that What makes you negative about life when you have so much positivity around " How can you give up when you were the one who taught me that how strength can be stored in these voids and why they're not supposed to be left empty. How can you give up when it was you who made sure I learn to walk on thorny paths and be able to jump over the boulders of life while you would watch from behind as if you knew I would fall and give up someday. How can you give up when you were the one who taught me to be myself amidst the crowd which refused to accept me. You were the one who taught me to flaunt my flaws as if they were reasons to my life and courage. .
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