•🔥Warning! This is 100% a #TransformationTuesday post but also a #TalkAboutIt post🔥💋
•Two years prior to this photo (6/8/17), what I experienced in my world was nothing short of the worst way to die (in my opinion). I held my heart in my hands, my sweet baby, my Liam James in my arms with my head on his chest as I had to endure listening & feeling for his last physical breath. The trauma & emotion I feel from my greatest accomplishment passing away that day is completely indescribable. Now, fast forward to this photo (taken 6/8/19) When somehow (I know how; my Liam’s strength & love for his mommy) I managed to walk across my first #NPC stage as a competitor & actually smiled!
I’m still in awe & living in what feels like dream state. Time makes no sense but my “Why” does. That being my Liam!
I told Liam at the beginning of 2017 I was going to compete in a fitness competition like my friend (who eventually talked me into meeting her coach) & Liam was all for it!! He was helping make my shakes, “doing” my workouts, keeping me on a schedule, laughing at my training aches & pains & complains, he was just so damn happy to be doing anything I wanted to do, so that was our focus together.
Then, May 29, 2017 the theoretical train came barreling through overnight taking out my life. It left me without my son 10 days later with no idea why or how. No warning, no nothing, just me. Lost, alone, without my beat.
I had made him a promise though & it has never stopped running through my head. “I will be okay buddy” “I promise I am so proud of being your mommy, of who you are, I will find a way to be okay for you & will always always be with you.” That promise is my “WHY” he is my why, the reason 2 years later I decided June 8th was the day I needed to accomplish the goal he & I started together. So I did! Now; it wasn’t pretty, it wasn’t easy, it wasn’t alone, & it wasn’t without quitting multiple times. However, in almost every turn I took came another beautiful member of “Liam’s Army” (both vested & new) who made this happen with me! #ThankYou 💜💚
• #Goal #Fitness #NPCBikini #Promise #Support #Friends #Love #MotherSonBond #Unbreakable #Smile #LawOfAttraction